Thursday, May 31, 2007

Due to some unforeseen circumstances, (or maybe I'm too lazy to explain) I end up having to watch Shrek 3 with Siming later..? Blinks.

Anyway, relatives are coming on 3rd June. Alternative meaning is that I have to clear up my table (yes I haven't finished packing.. I just lay the mess there overnight.) and my closet, if possible.

And I manage to borrow Artemis Fowl. ^^
And another weird thing was that I forgot the name of a book I wanted to read, but after circling the Library for quite a period of time... the author's name just clicked in my mind for no apparent reason. David Eddings!

Ohhh Yes. Yesterday I had cheer prac! New Member; CaiYe! Hahas. So were were just um.. warming up... on basic stunts... and mind you, we were really lacking practices! HAHA. Like lousy flexibility, lousy tumblings (my cartwheels... T.T), lousy stamina, PT also like die die like that. o__O
Anyways we ran around the track.. we were running really slow for our first round because we were saving energy for the second which we know will be half-a-complete torture.. coz we had to run sideways.. gotta switch from right to left after 200m. I was counting the number of steps and I died after 50? And last time (according to Altron) was 100. *scratches head*
After prac ended at 5pm, Sharl wanted to "test the durability" of her plaits (nicely done by Tiff!) so she dragged me (who dragged Tricia) for another round round the track.
Then home we went while the seniors had their dinner at Clementi or something.

Ahhh. June is starting out tomorrow!

Chua.
--

Sharl gave me some good advice that I didn't expect. (?!)

AT♥10:36 AM

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Okay, okay. I'm going to say this again.

CHUA CAN'T GO OUT AFTER THE CLASS CHALET.

And my class chalet is on the 5th & 6th. (thanks Jean for clearing my stupidity.) And I'm taken up on the 4th.

(:

Chua with lots of love. <3

AT♥10:55 PM

What's that word... oh yes.
I'm feeling exasperated.
And having the -____- expression on my face.
gaAh.
*

What a day!
I think I'm in the zombie mood or something.
That means diaoing, daoing, dead, exasperation, and definitely not in the very delightful mood.
(Shouldn't last, though.)

Alright, alright. I'm really not in the mood for posting. So, I'll go straight to the main little points, happy? (:

Reached school at 8:30am. I caught Jean reading her book (some horror story) and Feyra having her breakfast (milo?) in the canteen, and so I waved to them and we joined into a party on one of the tables. Joined the rest of the class at 9:10am...?

Had SMOPS. Shouldn't have made the choice of sitting beside Gerlynn since watching her draw distracted me and I ended up drawing myself. -.- So I guess I didn't fare very well for the paper, not that it holds a high importance... right?
Anyway, Jaryl and Ahmed sat directly in front of me and gerlynn respectively.. and the funny thing was our instinct was to kick their chair. *hi fives ger* :D

After that, I went to Mac with Sharl and YiHerng. Majority of the class went KFC. I joined them at 1:20pm? Half of us was late for class (by a minute or more) and I didn't listen to Mr. Ho at all. In fact, I was reading Tuesdays with Morrie that Stuart nicely lent me. That was, only till I read till the 40th page.

After class, I headed to the busstop to catch bus 197 to JL. Couldn't find the books I wanted, so I headed to Bukit Batok library. Couldn't find the books I wanted again, so that's one reason why I got frustrated. Still, I borrowed Moon Shadows and Cold Blood to try out.. Wanting Nineteen Minutes and The Pact by Jodi Picoult, as well as Angels Fall by Nora Roberts. However, these books are in high demand, so I doubt I'll ever be able to borrow them unless I was to reserve it for $1.55. Scroll down the webpage when you search those books in the library, and they'll show you "On Loan" to the bottom of the list. gaAh.

Anyway, I met both Mariel and Jaryl at Westmall. Okay, let me rephrase that. I met Mariel and Jaryl at different places. Which turns out pretty coincidental, because meeting 2 out of your 24 classmates without any plans at the same mall is rather rare.

After that, I caught my bus, headed home, and I was in the BLEH mood already.
And there's still Cheer Practice tomorrow. That means an early night for me today. And actually I was suppose to go Gerlynn's house. Nvm, my timetable's running out of the time anyway.
And schedule for the rest of the week is pretty... packed. Packed? More like.. alot of things to do but dont know when and no time.

Whatever!

Have a nice sleep later on,
Chua. (:
*

Both good and bad. Troublesome, too.

2 reasons. One involves a larger group-
[What can I do? There's a time due for it, too. Less than 2 and a half months left. And this thought will stay inside till everything's over. One day I'm going to take my hands off it too- and oh, that's a perfect empty threat. Curses.]

while the other's personal.
[I talked to her about it, it gave me some sense of peace and a little more understanding. It woke me up and at least it refreshed my senses... and I was thinking whether it's right or wrong. Conclusion was that it's more wrong to right. Another thing to curse about? Not entirely. Oh, bloody hell.]

P.S. Hoped you sensed the sarcasm in some sentences.

AT♥5:50 PM

When things start serving a higher level in your heart,
you get insecurity.

AT♥8:12 AM

Monday, May 28, 2007

I finished For One More Day, now I'd go hunting for Tuesdays with Morrie!
And honestly speaking, I haven't even read past the 100th page of Priestess of the White.
.__.

Final conclusion for the day?
I'm not stating.

That little talk made me feel more reasonable.

AT♥8:43 PM

Short Story.
That was one random phrase, but I don't feel like posting a long post anyway.

And.. my mum is... crazy?
She's laughing like "WAHAHAA" while watching the TV.
Blinks.

SO! CAP.
As a matter of fact, it wasn't so good.
Now what, same phrase? Work harder. Damn, I'm sick of it-
But it's not like fretting over it will change the score.
Thus, I'm not that affected by it;
Afterall- Dad & Mum didn't even know I collected my results today?

Anyway, I brought Feyra out for lunch since she's going back to Brunei tomorrow. Apparently we can't call Ger coz her MTP was at 4:30pm! o__O"
AHHH, going to miss Feyra when she go back to Brunei tomorrow! That darling. (:

Talking about Feyra reminded how hard it was for me to fall asleep yesterday night. I ended falling asleep only at 1+am near 2..? And so I cursed the person who sent me an sms at 1am, (and waking me up) turned out to be Feyra asking about MTP.

Yepp. That's about it. I'm skipping HCL makeup lesson tomorrow since Ger & I will be sending Feyra off the Airport? (Ger's mum doesn't allow. Aww.)

Lots of love,
Chua.

Fretting over your CAP won't work because you can't change them-
and there's really nothing beside putting more effort next sem.

Jiayous!

AT♥8:19 PM

Saturday, May 26, 2007

(One short post.)

Aha!
Mama gave me money to buy my book. [=

A few hours ago...

ME: Mum, can you give me money to buy a book?
MUM: What book?
ME: Storybook. It's quite ex. If it's a no then I'll just borrow it from the library.
MUM: Oh, nevermind. Just go and buy.

Since when was it that simple? Dots.
Yeppity. So I bought One More Day by Mitch Albom. Can't wait to read it.

I'm not even halfway through Priestess of the White though! The terms are soooo hard to get, and the glossary doesn't help at all.

There's still several more list of books down that I want to read. :D
*

Went to JP Comics Connection today. Valkyrie Profile 2 Guidebook costs $28.90. But I'm not spending my money on them YET. I'm saving up, darlin'. (:

Anyway, I failed to mention some stuffs on my blogpost about IMM on the other day I went there. Apparently some of the renovations were completed (some ain't yet.), so there were lots of new stalls up! Includes the newest branch for Popular, plus a couple more gifts shops (e.g. Precious thoughts) and there was one with a whole bunch of Tatty Teddies. There's also one that I'm sure Mariel will like coz half of it was filled with Pigs soft toy! :D
Yep, IMM's turning cooool. ^-^

Hope the Acer Computer comes back soon. Then I'll be able to Maple and probably come up with some new blogskins if I have the time.

Love,
Chua.

AT♥6:26 PM

Chua, chua, chua.
Today is Saturday.

So what?
I have nooo idea.

I'm supposed to be having lunch now, but I'm not hungry - considering the fact that I gobbled 2 buns and a bowl of cornflakes (blueberry morning!) just now.
But I still took my porridge anyway (since I wanted to have lunch at the same time as sis).. and it's currently left all by itself on the dining table while I'm at the computer.
riightt.

Oh yes... Aunt just called to say that the tornado (the one mentioned in the newspaper) appeared before her house. She even took a picture of it and commented that it looked extraordinary nice. (: In fact, both her mother-in-law and maid were freaked out while she kept standing in front of the window to "admire" the scenery? Sounds pretty much hilarious to me.

Nvm that. I'm downright scared of receiving of my CAP score. Probably because of EL, since it's worth 3 MC and I got a terrible score for the examination. *whacks head*
Oh well. Terror's coming up in 2 days' time and it's not like I can change the score anyway. Just have to work harder next year..? I even screwed up my Math! AHHHH. NVM.

Btw, yeah.. sorry about the fact that I haven't been replying ppl who IM me. Apparently though I'm online, mum's the one using the com... .__o
And I ain't really the kind who plays the com 24/7 ever since I can't play maple! (darn.) Due to the gr2D screen thingo.

Anyway, I went out yesterday (as I mentioned) with mum for both lunch and to the supermarket. Darn, I forgot to buy yogurt. .__. After I came back home, I packed my table for a while before bringing my sis out to the doctor. Had dinner at Sumo's house, so I didn't really get to pack my table afterall since I was out of house most of the time.

Oh, and my sis's down with chicken pox. Since it's highly contagious (plus I've never had it before) and that incubation period for the virus is two weeks, I'll be down with it too in 14 days, provided that I'm lucky. The earlier, the better. Might as well make use of the June holidays to be sick! :D
Poor sister.

However, my other sis apparently doesn't want to get affected, so just pity her at the moment. Meanwhile I should just stay around my other sis more often so as to increase the chance of getting infected... I mean, yeah. Who knows?

Now to get back to my cold lunch.

Chua. (:
Some memories are torturous.

AT♥1:32 PM

Friday, May 25, 2007

As a matter of fact, today isn't a very happy day so my mood's currently something like
-__-.

Aside from the fact that the com was pretty laggy, Dad was pretty much unreasonable over some stuffs, I received the news that Chalet dates were brought forward (and I didn't like it at all, now I've to change my timetable again), Angie told me that Cheer Prac is on 30th (meaning that I've to skip some events on the same day), and I was too nicely forced to accompany Mum to NTUC later... just because I'm not going out.

Enough about the useless complains. Might as well try to make my day happier and a little less miserable. And eating frozen Yakult don't really help.. kind of made me dizzy. oO. (Don't ask why Chua always have crazy ideas- I chuck the grape one into the freezer yst night.)

And yes; I cleared up half my table yesterday since I was out with my family at the earlier part of the day. Came across the title of the book that I wanted to borrow- North to Freedom. I've finished reading that book when I was p6, but I feel like reading it again anyway. Forgot how the story plot was like.. it was a nice book though.
Another book that I was reading belong to my sister's library.. I forgot the title; but it wasn't a fictional storybook.. anyway my sis brought it out with her. Now I don't get to read it till she comes back home. =/

Uh. Slept rather late yesterday since I was helping with my (stressed) sister. Then I was reading till I fell asleep at 12mn. Sheesh. Tired!

So my plans for the rest of the day will be playing Ps2, going out for lunch, going to the supermarket, going to the library, then back home to clear up my table.

Have a nice day ahead,
Chua.

Say bye bye to my CAP.

AT♥11:55 AM

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Ahhhh. Chua is sweating like crAAzzyy.
[Actually, I hate typing in those ^ kind of language. Can I switch back for the moment?]
Was reading KaiLin's blog when I was nicely distracted by the tv and headed for the sofa, and in turn my mum snatch away the com faster than you may exclaim "no".

(And before you continue the post, take note of a piece of news you may have never realised: Chua is a very messy person at home.) Then again, I'm improving. I'm much neater than I was last year. (HA!)

So.. I ended up clearing up my table.
Actually, not really clearing up. More like checking out what stuffs I have to buy that may organise my stuffs more.. such as mini-drawers. Ohh yes. Thing is, I figured that I didn't fully unwrap all my presents - since last year valentines'. Not that I didn't unwrap them, but- I don't know how to say it.

Alright. For instance, if I get a soft toy, I can't chuck em' all on my bed because there's simply no space and I'm a little allergic to them as well. I'll tell you another day what exactly is on my bed another day. So I have to end up placing them in my cupboard or stuffs.

So.. uhh. I went to open them up again. Somehow it brought back several memories because some of the cards were so sweet! Ahs. I was a little touched somehow; T_T
(Kays. I'm being so - arghh - random.)
After I sort them out, I have an entire column of my wardrobe dedicated to soft toys alone. oO. But they're all so adorable. (And my Tatty Teddies aren't called soft toys; they're my precious adorables. )

So what am I going to do tomorrow?
Clear my stuffs. I mean, clear some of my stuffs since it'll be impossible to do so within a day. And I don't mean like thrashing everything in my wardrobe within 18 minutes last year.


Eridanus!
Love,
Chua.

AT♥10:45 PM

Today was Level Bonding Day.
And I've nicely left out all the... other... unnecessary adjectives. (:
Some Bonding Day! -.o"

Gerlynn's description-
"School bonding was crap, totally. What did we do? Don't ask. I should have poned. More than 50% of the thingo was wasted, like walking walking and more walking without even knowing where we're supposed to go."

Yeah, you get me. The only fun part was when we (my team: ger, feyra, jean & i) drew the tree. Interesting thing was that the Korean tourists started peering over and speaking in Korean.. that we don't understand. Hahas! And Gerlynn kept calling Ivan the orange T-shirt guy. oO"

Anyways! We kept listening to Girlfriend by Avril Lavigne. Not that I like her much; aside from the fact that I don't think she's pretty or many of her songs are nice (Complicated is, though!), she's been advertising drugs and stuffs. Then again, don't insult a celebrity else her fans (like Mariel) will come and look for you for assassination! :D

Sounds like my opinion about Lindsay Lohan as well, I love Rumours!

After that, we (ger, feyra, stuart, stan) had lunch at the food court. We wanted to hang out at other odd places, but we still split and went to different places (I was irritated by somebody, anyway.) where Ger Feyra and I took bus 7 to Clementi. All of us fell asleep in the bus! It was so comfortable! (Nobody else was in the upper deck.. and the aircon was nice!)

Ahh. Gerlynn headed for her PSLs stuff back in school while Feyra and I headed to Bugis (again; though specific items in particular). Okay. So we got what we wanted, and we didn't spend more than 1 hour there (which is good). Hilarious thing was that we talked a lot about a particular topic with specific names. Aside from the fact that we both ended up in giggles or laughter, it was pretty.. interesting. Came up with some plan that Feyra can't wait for. HAHA. [P.S. I'm nicely forbidden to tell anyone what happened.] (or so.)
Nvm, should have just ignored this paragraph, huh? o.O
Btw we met Junle, Andy, and co.!

Anyway.. I came across this black (nice) wallet that I liked with some butterflies imprinted on it. Actually the design Ger liked was the same as mine, just that she preferred the white and smaller one! (: The price obviously was the "little" obstacle - $36 in wallet shop. Teh; logically speaking I should save up my money anyway. I'll get it when I have the time though, considering that Jq keeps giving me that look each time I throw my current wallet up the air. *Ahem* And I hate it!

Oh yes, talking about saving money- I'm gonna keep myself HOME instead of OUT. At least I don't want to go out twice every three days. Afterall, there's so much for me to do at home!

Taps with finger and switches off light.

Have a nice break ahead,
Chua.

P.S. All CA results except HCL & Physics are out!

AT♥8:19 PM

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Alright. One short and sweet post.

Apparently I was blog surfing till it was 7:30pm odd, before lying on my bed and reading, then had a phone call, then I fell asleep at 8:00pm.

And I woke at 10:00pm for a short moment; before falling to sleep again and waking at 11:40pm for dinner.

Then I checked on my download for Maple.. Obviously it was completed. (: Then ran through some installations stuffs; attempted login in and realised Maple's under maintenance at 00 00h -14 00h. It was 00 07h then. In any case, that means I'll get to Maple tmr.

Glad I'm not going out.. sometimes staying at home makes you feel a little more relaxed in any case. Plus, I'll be going out on Weds & Thurs... I remembered having something on on Friday but I forgot what it was- probably mixed up my own timetable. Dots.

Last thing.
I need to do some serious shutdown to my phone.
Highly exceeding Smses.
*gulp*

Chua.

P.S. If I'm on *away* mode in MSN, it's best to send me an sms to check back on the com. Else, I'll probably be doing some other odd stuffs in some odd part of the house. Thankye.

AT♥12:14 AM

Monday, May 21, 2007

I'm bored.

Honestly. That's no fun, no risk, no challenge; giving up like this. I'm wanting something to make me feel real high; and I have no idea what. Or maybe I'm just tired, considering how terribly I've slept yesterday night.

Then again, instead of whining/ moaning/ groaning about this miserably boring hour (or day), let's get back to the typical stuffs most will post about for the day - script checking & results.

I am...
Horrified by English.
So-so with H. Chinese.
Upset with Biology.
Satisfied with Chemistry.
Alright with Physics.
Surprised by History.

If you really want to know my score that badly, yeah.. you can ask me. (: Retarded a little though- I want my HCL Paper I back!
Anyway, it's script checking for Math tmr. I - am - so - dead.

Meanwhile, I slept terribly yesterday night. Despite the fact that I got up on bed at 10:30pm, I fell asleep only at 11:35pm after turning around on the bed for ages. Furthermore, I had flu- so I used up a whole lot of tissue as well.
Woke up in the middle of the night; found my pillow, my bolster, and my blanket on the floor. Awesome. I wonder how I did that? Then I spent another 20 minutes turning around the bed before dreaming and waking up again.
So I'm still tired! Sheesh.

Oh, and maybe I should start eating more carrots. I'm kidding. But my eyesight's getting worse? Couldn't see those italics words Ms Koh was showing on the projector. Ahhhh.

And! I love WhaiPeng darling. (: Yahdidahh. Don't know why she's so *smart*; don't know how she guessed that weird thing but nevermind. *Raises eyebrows*

Aside from all these odd happenings, something else happened. Once again, I'm given the nice "privilege" of getting stuck in the middle between two parties- don't know what I'm supposed to do. [And stuart, leak one word I told you on the bus and I'm going to kill you.]

Meanwhile, Acer computer really crashed. Hope it gets fixed soon. Anyway, that means laggy computer for quite a while, lesser chance of gaining access to the current com, and no maple at the moment. In fact, I'm downloading it on this com now - 43%. Dots.

Say Cheeeerss.

Best luck for Math Papers tomorrow!
Chua.

AT♥6:06 PM

Sunday, May 20, 2007

New plot up in Neopets!
(Obviously, I'm sloowww.)

AT♥11:43 AM

Saturday, May 19, 2007

Chua is turning Rudolph.
(direct meaning: having flu.)

Alrighto'. Before I start posting about anything, repeat after me:
Chua is not rich.

Like, obviously. Though I spent a whole lot at Bugis the other day! HA. It was such fun.

-zap-

gaAhs. There's so much to post about- that I don't know where to start; because they all come in bits of jigsaw...
*

Yeahh. I didn't get to post yesterday since I figured that I was pretty tired... neither did I come online for the whole day! Whoaa. However, I won't elaborate- wanting to sleep early tonight and fly off to dreamland. (:

But it was so nice! (the word nice ranges.) You see, Tampines (mall) was nicely 21 stops from Clementi; the environment was new, the atmosphere was new, and so I felt splendid entirely. Seems like all malls are cool as long as they're not miserably small like Westmall. Heh.

Watched Spiderman 3! The movie was pretty cool and I laughed at some parts (like when one scientist said, "the silicon mass changed" but everyone dao-ed him; then it was even more RDC when out comes sand-man (or mudman when there's water) after the stupid silicon thing because there was like - no link?! lmao.) Go watch it if you hadn't!

It felt so great to be happy; two days in a row. How rare do they get? Somehow it made me feel ever so fortunate - having people who care and love me so much; people who aren't always there for everyone else. It's like learning how to cherish. Yesterday seemed as though it was a dream like it wasn't real, watching the sky turn dark.

And so I got home at around 8:50pm. Curfew's suppose to be at 8:30pm but I suppose it's kinda flexible. Afterall, since when was I punctual?
Then I slept at 11 odd.

*

Alrighto'. Now for the random parts. I mean, random topics.

I bought Teenage yesterday on the way home; in fact- it was out yesterday.
No more Avril, now its JJLin. I'm bringing it to sch on Monday just in case Mariel/ Gerlynn wants to read them. (:
Apparently they were advertising JEC... and you know, the new Pizza thingo that PizzaHut came up with?
"Slim healthy and packed with loads of substance!" They meant the really thin pizza that you saw on advertisements (in bus stops and stuff), NOT the post-diet Ugly Betty. Ha.
Flip through the pages and then you realise Fathers' Day is approaching! Now to ponder over what to get for Dad. =/
Flip through the pages again and you'll see the movie pages. There's Nancy Drew that's coming out in 21st June. No idea if I'm going to watch it, prolly gonna watch the ratings. oO. -No comments-

And I've been mapling recently, cheerios. Actually, I personally think that there's alot more things to do beside staring at the computer for hours. Put aside gorging yourself with jellies, that is. Though I must say I've been eating little nowadays. Sheesh. So yeppity, here's my (current) profile for maple! I'm no one pro or rich, just this common, normal, kid. Happy?

	User: Leviae Job: Rogue Level: 10 (I just started today) World: Bootes
	User: Leviathn Job: Ice/Lighting Mage Level: 34 World: Delphinus

I have another Fighter in Aquilla, but I've stopped playing in that world since last December. x)
Anyway I'd still prefer to play my mage in Delph, though I started the new one in Bootes so that at least there's ZongYao to entertain me when my sis can't in Delph. Cheerios.

BUT! Beside Mapling, I'd prefer reading Priestess of the White as well. Did I say I managed to borrow the book? Now I'm stuck in the Settings again but Nyah, nvm- I'll get over with it one day. I was reading, flipping.. then I caught the word "Part One" and I was like, "wth I just finished the Prologue?!" Because Trudi Canavan came up with so many new terms! o__O It's hard to understand.

Oh of course there's so much other things to do like giving my MESSY table a serious Cleanup. I mean, yeah. It's messy, though my sister's one is worse? Teehee. Yes, yes. I shall dedicate one day to clean up. Which day and when, I have no idea. Maybe next week. ;)

Oh, and I don't go out for more than 2 days in a row else I'll kind of get dead beat. Suppose to stay overnight at sister island but sis didn't want me to. Ha! So I get a day-off for Saturday to stare at the com do something. Chua shall not sleep at any time later past 11pm 11:30pm. I'm heading to Siming's (she came online right when I typed her name) tomorrow... she said she wanted me to play Mahjong with her! Lol. (:

Happy Saturday!

Have a nice Sunday tomorrow,
Chua. ^-^
*

Think-
If you're wanting to hurt a person. If so, are you the only one, or the only few?
Because if you are, then you'd be the one in the wrong; being the one at fault;
Next; think of the question- not what, but why. Then check if it's even valid, even worthy of what you're doing.
Aside from that, if you're still so bent on revenge- do you even achieve what you want? Did the person you wanted to hurt even got hurt?
Sometimes if you bothered having a clearer look at the entire situation, you'd realise you've done nothing beside adding a few more slashes onto your own heart.

Sidenote: The entire paragraph is pointing to nobody in particular... but everyone in general.

AT♥8:43 PM

P.S. BLOGGER IS COMPLETELY FIXED!! HOORAYYY.

Ripped from Gerlynn's blog!
And Chua is feeling highhhh coz its' her DAY OFF from any OUTINGS!

*

WHAT'S YOUR: -> ringtone: FF9 - The Place I'll Return and a whole lot more for different profiles! :D
-> middle name: Don't think I have one? oO.
-> job: Student. Though I may want to apply for some stuffs during Dec... Tsk! Not sure.
-> sign: Virgo! (:

WHAT COLOR:
-> is your hair: Black.
-> are your eyes: Brown! ;D
-> are your socks: Mostly White. Hee.
-> is your shirt: P6 Camp Tee. Hahas! Casual at home'.

RIGHT NOW:
-> the closest thing to your left hand: Errr. I see a disc labelled Happy Feet Disc 2
-> what's in your pockets: Air.
-> are you thirsty: Uh-huh. Should fetch a glass of water later. =/
-> what are you listening to: Nothing; unless you include the wind whistling in my ears. (:
-> where are you: Singapore? Nyahh. Living Room.
-> is the light on: *shakes head*. But I was fooling with this broken torchlight just now. oO.

ONE OR THE OTHER:
-> cat or dog: Dogs. But Cat for my Bag!
-> cookies or candy: Choco Chips. Without Almond. ;)
-> kiss or hug: Hugs are warmer Kiss's a different thing`
-> school or work: School? Haven't worked yet... only part-time jobs before. ^^
-> shower or bath: Don't know the difference still. =|
-> Cingular or Verizon: No idea what those are; but don't you think Cerizon sounds nice?
-> ps2 or Xbox: PS2 rules. HEH.
-> whipped cream or cherries: Cherries upon Whipped Cream upon Mint Ice cream.
FAVORITE: -> animal: Parrot.. (mine flew away from home. *sniff*)
-> drink: Anything. Honest.

RANDOM: -> how many fingers do you have?: None in my Tatty Teddies.
->what do you wish you were doing right now: Hanging out with people whom I love!
-> what's the last thing you bought: Watermelon Fruit Punch. (:
-> are you wearing a belt: Nope.. I wanted to buy one from Bugis the other day, but can't seem to find one that I like. Hee.

Last: -> drink: Plain Water? It's gooood.
-> meal: Meal? Or food.
-> words you said: Uhhh. I always repeat what I type, don't I?
-> words you typed: Words I typed, or keys I pressed?
-> place you went: Tampines Mall. It feels GREAT to be at a new enviroment. ;D

What makes you most happy?
It's hard to be... but hanging out with people I love makes me feel overwhelmed. And definitely along with a sense of security. (:

If you could go back in time, and change something, what would it be?
Errr. No idea. Personally I don't go about thinking about this often since well- we can't change time?

Ever have a near death experience?
No.. I didn't even land in the hospital. Though the other day I almost got knocked down by the car coz I was too deep in thoughts..

What's the name of the song that you're listening to?
Ain't listening to any; I don't open my Windows Media Player often!

Any celeb you would marry?
Nyahhh. Not interested.
Name someone with the same birthday as you?
*takes a deep breath* I shall not name the name. (:

ever sang in front of a large audience?
Yeahhh. Several. I still remember how my teachers keep dragging me.... -___-

What do you usually order from Starbucks?
Starbucks rock! Hot Chocolate & Oreo Cheescake makes the cafe great.

Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
Several.. don't remember. *winc

Do you still watch kiddie movies or kiddie TV shows?
Hahas... not really. No more "inner child in you" to "release". (Nyah they're still there). Just that I don't watch TVs much?

Do you speak any other languages?
English & Chinese with a mega slight bit of Hokkien. Yesh, that's literally pathetic. .__.

What magazines do you read?
Teenage! (monthly), Teens (every two months), Weekly i (whenever I see them on the couch).
Have you ever ridden in a Hummer limo?
Lol? What's that? No..

Has anyone you're really close with passed away?
Not really.. *fortunately*. Closest is Grandpa, I think.

Do you ever watch MTV?
Yeppity; once in a while?
*

WHOA. The quiz finally ended. :D

Have a nice day ahead,
Chua. <3

AT♥10:47 AM

Thursday, May 17, 2007

WAHHHHH!

WENT SHOPPING TODAY.

Literally from Morning to Night! Hooray.
Lots of love to Ger and Feyra from Chua~!

Met KaiQi, Ger, & Feyra at approx 12nn for Lunch at Clementi Macs. At first KaiQi treated as though I wasn't there, so I too ignored her back by asking Gerlynn, "There's only three of us here?" *grins* Haha! Moi Love KaiQi` Anyway, we too met WhaiPeng, Cheeying, Aaron etc. in Macs, along with another group consisting of XinYi, Lorna, YiChian and co. After a while longer, the four of us headed to BUGIS. Rawr.

Went around briefly first. So I was holding hands with KaiQi like making out like that. (: Went around the upper gifts shop, just to scan through here and there. After that we headed to Kinokuniya (Ahhh. Books!) Then we (the four of us) took Neoprints! We spent nearly forever there lol. (Ger's gonna scan in later, I'll update the pictures tomorrow; so check back!) Then, midway, we saw Cleo, Mariel, YanLing, JiaYi, & Nello! Woots. What a small world; BUGIS rocks! (sooo huge)

After that, KaiQi had to leave due to some XXXXX things to do. So Ger, Feyra, and I went around shopping for the rest of the day after around 1pm..? Like the upper levels for GIFT SHOPS - LOTS OF TATTY TEDDIES!. gaAH! Feyra took PICS of those adorable Tatty Teddies btw. Tons of them. Apparently we came across this gift shop that had both Tatty Teddies and Pooh, so both Ger and I got really excited and we were OMG-ing in the shop. Then dear Feyra bought this TattyTeddy Card for me! ($4.90) Whhaaah. I'm gonna put in my wallet, feel free to ask to see it. It's adorable!

And yes... shopping IS shopping. Since both Feyra and I wanted to get clothes, Feyra bought TONS of them from Samuel and Keith! I got some clothes too, of course. Ger's the only one who didn't, since she wanted to buy more of her own stuffs + belated birthday presents + accessories.
Then we walked around the whole of the mall.. well, nearly the whole of the mall. Got lots of stuffs? Maybe not that much, since they were pretty much expensive anyway. I was like wanting to get a hairclip (but I have no idea how to use them LMAO) but I still got one with Gerlynn anyway. The three of us also got this odd necklace thingo (3 for $24); and Gerlynn too bought Tiff and YingYin a belated birthday present!

Btw, when we were walking across some clothes shop, we caught sight of this two male students (approx age 20 odd?), looking for female lingerie. The main thing was that they were talking to the lady who was selling them, and Feyra caught the words, "this is the largest size...". I'm like honestly Question Mark-, what the heck were they doing there? 0.o Rofl.

Anyway, the three of us girls went to Starbucks too! I got Hot Chocolate like what Jean recommended, and it was really rich with choco or something! Woots. Feyra got Ice Choco and both Gerlynn and Feyra got a cheesecake each. Yahhh, Starbucks rock. (:
We sat there and chatted for over an hour!. We were talking about so much stuffs, ranging from - just everything! We were laughing & giggling like mad when we talked about how entertaining the "gays" are, especially when they sleep in class (HEE!), then about our class (and sadly purposefully avoided the subject of splitting up), then about literally half the school, then another topic that drove Gerlynn to endless fits of giggles, places we wanted to go (again), blah blah blah... and by then it's around 6pm odd. (:

After walking around the mall for quite a while again, I came across this bag that I really liked. It's like GULP because it's probably the most expensive thing that I so badly wanted to have? Coz usually I get to control the amount of money I spend. =/ $70 with a 20% offer = 56 bucks. BLAH. Anyway, since I didn't have cash, we just proceeded to having dinner at KFC. (Since we were too lazy to walk to elsewhere?)

However, Ger and Feyra nicely decided to lend me some money to buy that bag. DARN. It's sooo nice. (: Btw, we saw this female which looked er.. terrible? Her clothes were revealing so much of her skin that we were thinking she was either mad or somebody from Geylang. Serious. o-O".
Yahddidahh. In the end I bought that bag, Ger bought some other accessories, and we went to catch the MRT at 8:30pm. Ger wanted to get this wallet; but her mum didn't allow. It cost 33 bucks, though I must say it looked real nice. :D

Ohh yes. Forgot to mention. We saw Mathias & Vivian as well! Not that it's surprising since it's not the first time they were caught dating-; but once again what a small world. oO!

Then I went to Clementi to help Mum buy some stuffs, before reaching home at 9 odd.

What a nicee dayy. (:

ANYWAY, want to know the grand total we three girls spent for the day? Not that we're rich or whatsoever, it's just this once in a lonnngggg time thingo.
The grand total was...

*drum rolls*

FOUR HUNDRED AND SEVEN DOLLARS!!!
plus plus.

HAVE A NICE DAY AHEAD,
WITH LOTS OF LOVE FROM CHUA.

I'm tired. (:

AT♥9:49 PM

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

Ahhhh. I feel good. (:

Because I slept.

After checking through both Bio and Physics Paper for Term 1 (resulting in horrendous results; I don't even know why I did so terribly even though I studied -.o), my group nicely cleared our terrarium (whereby the plants were pretty little things, even our Sansievera had a new shooting!), Ger&Stuart&Jq&Chua went out for "breakfast". Apparently I didn't remember (!) to eat earlier this morning, so I had hotcakes (which I didn't finish because I was too tired?) before heading home.

I was really, really tired. Attempted to sleep in Audi during the break for Script Checking but failed to. Treat it as serve me right for sleeping at 12. And F***, I still forgot to submit my linoleum? gaAh. Good thing we're going to school tmr anyway.

So I got home at approx 11+. Before even making my way to my bedroom, I fell asleep in the living room. Man, I was tired. Had some dream (which I forgot) and woke up at about 4pm. Apparently I was still in my FORMAL with my TIE and my wallet in my skorts; and yes- my scrunchie was still on though it came out halfway. (:
So I changed and tada here I am.

Now I'm gonna maple or something. Like, play. Not for too long a time, though. There's lots of stuffs I'd love to do- Drawing, for an instance. YADIDA.

*

You're getting irritating. Tsk.
*

Seems like I'm the one being played-
likely, in any case.

Have a sweet day ahead,
Chuaa. (:

AT♥4:18 PM

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

A complete stranger;
exploring another's life-

Can't- bring it off my mind.
*

Sufficiently retarded idiot. (:

AT♥11:08 PM

Blogger's down lately, but nevermind that.
Meanwhile, I shall start my post. (:
*


Phrase it nice; independent-
Otherwise; its arrogance.


Yep, exams are over.
And I have NO comments over that.
Don't bother trying to understand my mind; may I assure you you will fail to do so. (:

Stats was a so-so; I must have screwed up my graph (it looked worse than ever), and neither did I know what's a box and whisker diagram. After searching the net, I realised it was that retarded diagram that I didn't understand at all (and stupidly forgotten to revise for it since I had neatly forgotten that Mr. Low even taught us that).

Thus, in overall, my exams weren't what you can call awesome, and my grades for math have dropped terribly. Better don't let it repeat next sem'.

So after stats, a whole group of us went out. Maybe you'd like to refer to Gerlynn's blog for what we did and all. Afterall, I'd think she'll describe everything else in a more detailed and cheerful manner than I do. :D

However, I was really glad to skate after the resurfacing. Apparently I haven't felt happy for a long while.. so it just kind of brought back those feelings. (and thanks stan; I appreciate it alot)

Anyway, juniors were there too! Yahdidah. Ethel you pretty little girl <3. Christine you too. <3 and my darling Cheryl (Lit) as well. Hahas!

Lunch was stupid, because I attempted shooting ice at HanSiang at the other table to no avail. Apparently I ended up asking Pan (who was sitting beside me) silly questions, like what to do after exams. He was like "question-mark". Anyway talking about Pan reminded me of Gerlynn's tie. She wore this "tie" or "scarf" (half-half) around her neck and the rest was teasing her if Pan's wearing a ribbon or something. (:

Blahh. After that was Arcade, before I proceeded to Popular and some other stores with Ger and Feyra.

Here's a thought:
It's considered a great mistake to adore Tatty Teddy too much, since most of their stuffs are SO expensive. A less than 10cm Tatty Teddy can cost over 15 dollars, what else do you expect? Even the cards are $4.50 each. Get 10, and you'll have $45.

Got back home; apparently I felt pretty tired.
Prolly will sleep early today... provided that I finish some tasks. Tsk.
And come to think of it, *whacks head*, I haven't handed in my linoleum piece.

Have a nice day ahead,
Chua.

AT♥7:35 PM

Monday, May 14, 2007

Just posting a tatty teddy pic to keep myself up! (:

// sad; scared

Chua.

AT♥6:42 PM

Nooooo. Mum's using the other com. *sniff*
All my documents are >>>>>> (there).
Actually I stopped playing PS2 after I got bored out of it. Sis wasn't around; she went to Malaysia (I think.).
When has this com become so miserably laggy?

Anyway tmr's paper is at the morning... which is good! I get to skip -

Take a look what my mum asked me. Just.
"Where's your sis? In School is it?"

Then she stared at me for a moment before exclaiming what she remembered.

- assembly. Unlike today. Wanted to take away lunch but ended up going to Sumo's House. =/ Odd people.

Uhhhh. Exams are going to end tomorrow.
And I'm downright down;
very interested in the library books that I hope I'm going to hunt down tomorrow.
There's Priestess of the White by Trudi Canavan that I still haven't read. Followed by the rest of the Trilogy of Age of the Five including the last book that's going to be out during.. July? Apparently I don't want to re-read The High Lord (which I did yesterday) coz I remembered how long I cried for after Akkarin died in the book. o__O Hopefully her other trilogy won't end up to be some tragedy either. Then I'd gladly like Artemis Fowl too; provided that I can get through the *boring* settings. Nooo ideaaa.

And a whole lot more- I don't think I'd want to list them out.

I'm bored'.

Chua.

AT♥5:21 PM

Same, old, normal world.
Not that it's going to change anytime soon, that is. Boring.
Of course I'm counting in the fact that we're putting aside all the global warming and stuffs.

Say bye to Biology Exam.
I have not much comments to give for the exam, beside a "so-so" or a "half-half".
Tomorrow's Stats; but heck- I'm not going to study much for it.
Playing Burnout Revenge later?

I'm neither in a down or happy mood-
"Demoralised". Take not of the Italics.
Basically it means that you won't sense a thing that I'm Dee-ing away unless I want to you to, which is approximately 1 out of the million. (:

I'm talking in senseless speech, mind me. :D

Can't believe I actually forgot such an important thing. Was I THAT distracted? So I slapped myself while walking to Central. Odd.

What's my 0.7 Blue Signo Pen doing in front of my computer screen?
I have no idea. oO.

've got some tasks to accomplish later- WHILE playing Burnout Revenge. What a nice, retarded, idea. (:
Take my time'.

Gonna blogskip um--- at around...
when I get bored of PS2? I don't want to resume playing Valkyrie Profile 2 yet. Woots! I'd want to get the guidebook. TeeHee. What a non-gamer.
But hey, if you want me on to ask about something, just ask me to come online. Afterall, my family ain't switching the computer down anytime now- we've been letting it on for the past few nights while we're asleep. Simply because the com has problem being switched on, thus we leave it on so that we won't have to bother the trouble of switching it on? How smart.

And I'll come online if I'm gonna look for pics to save in my thumbdrive. ♥

Yeah, yeah. So update your posts, everyone. (: Entertain me later. (You wish.)

Chua.
All the best for final exam tmr!

AT♥2:03 PM

Sunday, May 13, 2007

Happy Mothers' Day!

Yes, yes. You've still got to be a filial daughter regardless of the wreck it turned out to be. Might just as well jolly well whack my head against the table.
I'm kidding; it didn't turn out a wreck.

Went out in the morning to a restaurant in Orchard. Sis paid the bill, it nicely exceeded 100 Bucks, I believe. Nevermind that. After that, Dad and I went home first while my sis and mum went to Botanic Garden.

Then they came back, we ate a small cake (cream was 1cm thick), before slacking at home and going out for dinner again.

Alright, aside from those, I barely revised Biology. *curses*.
Nyah.
Exams are going to be over in 2 days-
Cheers or what?

*stares in space*

Uh. I'd just want to draw and draw and draw.
After the exams. (:
Come up with blogskins. Play Valkyrie after getting the guidebook. Clear my table and bookshelf. Live in a little bit of peace. Ransack Library and Borders. Download Anime. Stare at the com. Go out. Do a little sport. Etc.

Meanwhile, what a borinnggg world.
No risks, no challenges. Seeking Insanity?

Reminds me of Burnout Revenge.

I feel dead.
Why?
Because the exams are ending.
I told ya' the reason already.
Freak reason? Just let me have peace...
Baka!

Chua.

AT♥9:21 PM

What a boring world....
-.-

AT♥3:55 PM

Saturday, May 12, 2007

"I'm going to dieee after the exams."

Right. That was the sentence I suddenly caught myself thinking.
How Pleasant.

Basically it meant that I keep dying or something.

There. Idiot.

Anyway had an odd dream. (as always, that is.)

Not that I remembered the details, but there was some part that included celebration of exam, drowning in the water with detergent [making it hard to breathe, so i assumed that the blanket must have been over my face], hugging my younger cousin coz he was crying, an image of a white handphone and my comb, the Level Bonding thingo, etc...

Weird, but my dreams are always weird anyway.

Tmr's Mothers' Day and my family's going out. Sheesh. o.O

Chua.

AT♥3:22 PM

Friday, May 11, 2007

Goodness me,
I was disgustingly disgusted by the news about school bullies.
Besides the cornering and abusing in deserted areas, there's still dumping students into rubbish chute.
Talk about Schools.
Oh well.

Anyway, sis is sick.
She's down with fever, along with headache as bad as the one I got yesterday that you have to tear to release the pain. Lift your head an inch up from your pillow and then you'll feel the stabs.
Lasted all the way till today's Math E. Geom Exam.
But anyway, she vomited half her medicine out;
Hope she gets better.

// Holdnopromises ××

Chua.
♥ Tatty Teddy
I'll never have the courage to read those; past they were.

AT♥9:17 PM

You - are - one - big - idiot.
That's nicely dedicated. Teh.
*

今天死得好悲惨呀。
三张考卷，三张都没完成。三张都有不会答的问题，三张都不够时间。做到我要死要活的嘛。
最惨的就是物理了。不会做的一大堆，不死才怪。
数学也好不到哪里去，桌子也歪的，怎么画圆圈啊？反正，一个两个问题全都不会做，扣了十几分也不知道。死了算了啦。

昨晚竟然头痛，使我睡不着。早上起来还是头痛，有望了带药去学校，不只是傻还是什么。
不管怎么样，考卷做完了就是做完了，又不是我可以晚上悄悄跑去老师家偷回卷子吧？

Good luck to all for Stats & Bio; study hardd! :D
Before playing next tuesday.

Afterall, exams are ending.
Yeah, yeah. I know it's good and it's worth celebrations.
Yet I've pushed everything that I'd want to think about till its after the exams.
And so, when the exams end-
There's gonna be lots to think about.
That's why part of me doesn't want it to end.
Ironic.
And frustrating.

What I told Sharlene today was that whatever we've got in our mind to handle, we've got to develop the ability of handling them; no excuses.
She said there's such a thing as too many-
but unfortunately I haven't gotten that concept well.

Anyway I wanted to download some decent games from ZapSpot (at least they're more interesting than miniclip or ezone) but sis doesn't allow coz it contains spyware. =(
Which ruins the com, actually.

So my CAP is going down the drain;
so dead.
Gotta mug real hard for Bio and Stats, I suppose.

Jiayous; and don't get a headache. :D
P.S. History results are out in Espace; Literature in Email.

A plea for help;
but fortunately not acknowledged.

Chua.

AT♥3:17 PM

Thursday, May 10, 2007

It seems like I'm in the wrong track;
I can't find an ending for the game.

Chemistry Exam!
I DIDN'T FINISH THE PAPER.
I think I did quite badly for it.. it's like throwing away free marks.
Darn.

It's over, anyway. Physics Exam tomorrow.
I'm having a headache, so I'll turn to sleep now.
Meaning I'll just have to wake up early for revision.

I'm losing my mind when I'm playing a fool-.
Yet there's nobody but me to set it back myself; or so I must.

//Cherish.

AT♥10:03 PM

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

555th post.

Seriously..
Nobody would have post at 3pm. And I still go blog skipping.
Prolly just a habit.
*

History exam's over, makes me feel as though it's some sort of celebration.

Chemistry tmr. Will have to mug hard.

Then there'll be 3 exams on Friday.. ouch.
Have to do revision for Physics, along with revision for the other 2 math topics as well. Sheesh. I'd better do well for all the three papers.
Then again, we'd be released at 1230 in school tmr, so I ought to have the time somewhere somehow to revise on all three.

Can't wait till the exams are over (obviously). After the fact that history paper is over, the stress seemed to be so much lesser. (:
There's so many things I'd want to do after the exams. Get to the library to borrow books (time to come up with a list), buy those layout designs sketchbook to draw on, clear my table (rawr), play maple (if my sis is).
Well those are excluding going out and having fun, but you can't expect me to draw and read and play at the same time anyway!

Wanting CA grades to come up.. including Literature. Ah well.

And I think Ms ******* is really unreasonable. Really. She makes too much a fuss out of small things (I apologise for the criticism); besides the fact about how she "lectured" KaiLin, the one regarding Feyra's scholarship is even worse. Like wth.

Oh yes. I haven't talked about my English Essay today. The topic I wrote about was "My bedroom". I think I exceeded 700, though I managed to cancel away several paragraphs from my orginal essay of approx 850 words. That's long.
Anyway, one of the topic was a distorted fairytale. Apparently it brings me back to my GEP time when we had to write a distorted Cinderella tale. Oh, yes. Interesting. But where did my essay go?

I'm feeling (half) good. As in relaxed. After my exams will be the marking days, followed by one week of school (I'll probably spend my time reading through if I found any nice books or clearing up the classroom. Likely latter.), before it's the June Holidays. How time flies.

I wondered if I'd be enjoying the holidays, though. I THINK that my family suppose to go to Malaysia, but I'm not very sure about that. I wouldn't really mind if I do coz' I'll get to see my cousins (!) though I won't bring my hopes too high just in case we aren't. Not that I mind it that much, home's peaceful at times afterall.
Then "holiday will repeat itself". I'll get bored out by mum if I keep staring into the com. I don't feel like playing RPG games because each time I do, I get crazy over them and nobody knows what I'm talking about. Waitup, maybe I can get Feyra to come to my house and play FF together or something. Lol. Then again, I'm too lazy to call people into my house. Maybe I'll just stick to Valkyrie Profile at the moment.

One checkpoint. Isn't it boring to read my blog post?

I was feeling kind of tired in school today. So I drank Mocha; I wasn't sure if it's the caffeine that woke me up or the ice that chilled me awake. Odd way of phrasing, but nevermind that for the moment.
I don't know how I'm going to "enjoy" after exams celebration. I was suppose to feel delighted after History Exam today, but I don't seem to get the mood. It's like forcing yourself to be happy even when seeing looks of disappointment on others' face.

Hm. Suddenly feel like eating Oreo Cheesecake. Ahhh. Nevermind. (:

A pity my family would be against the idea I had in my mind since so long ago, something I'd love to give a try on. Maybe I'll just wait till I'm a little older, though I have no idea when the opportunity will come again. I had such a nice chance, you know- and I really think it'll bring some fun into life.
Some fun, some stress.
Some time consuming stuffs. Actually, I don't think it's that encouraged either, but meanwhile I'll concentrate on Acads.

On my way home I gritted my teeth-
The mistake made was too great; that's the only regret I can think of that I made in life. Hope I don't have to pay too much to make up for it, yet I can feel the stress holding on to me all the time.

Anyway, talking about Acads; remembered how I said last year about dropping a whole lot more of modules this year so that I'll get to enjoy a little?
I still ended up taking all the cores except for Music. How ridiculous.
Would have love to drop history, but I can't anyway.
Then you'd ask me why I'm taking geog next Sem, that's because I'm wanting to drop History when I'm year 3?
WELL, I don't have third lang anyway. (:
But it's like I have so many extra MCs. Cheers.

Talk about evading facts. Damnit, I just don't want to get bothered about them. After all, if talking about it just result into nothing but something worse and depressing my mood, I might as well avoid it.
Heck, I'll still take that as an insult mind you.

Wind's howling.
Seems like after the numerous hot/warm days, the west seems to be raining again. (:
No outdoor trips, not like any is on the way.

Anyway, yah-huh. Just thinking of something interesting to say. Oh yes, I was vulgar when I was Primary 5. TeeHee. And some people doesn't believe it. Wonder why? Thinking back into the past, I remembered how Ms Chang (she's getting married!) told me to stay back and she was telling me how the other teachers complained about my vulgarities in the *dark* classroom.
Haha. How interesting.

Um, yes. That's about it I think.

All the best for exams, once again!
Chua.

P.S. Take care, drink lots of water, blink in front of the com (don't stare), remember to revise, don't put your phone near you when you sleep (that's what I do, unfortunately), and just make sure you have enough rest! Cheerios.

AT♥3:07 PM

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

Sometimes its hard to post, because you just cant seem to phrase the words properly. Then it ends up getting crappy and I'll just blabber through everything I'd love to say it right.
Yeah. Something like that.

//

Came across lots of TattyTeddy watches thingo online. BLAH! They all look so nice. ^-^ Click to enlarge!




That's why I should never get a credit card. If not I'll start buying everything online. =/

*

Then this's from Jean's blog.



Chua.
*


I'm scared; I really am.
I fear repeating my mistake again-
Must I have to pay so much for the wrong action?

AT♥9:21 PM

Monday, May 07, 2007

Oh, Stop it.

I don't know why you think that way;

Anything I didn't promise, I didn't promise.
What pain.
I told a lie; white it may be-
but.

I don't know.

Sometimes my life may be restricted from so many things and so much freedom;

I don't care.

But knowing you've failed protecting a person you care for hurts.
As always, that is.
It's like feeling helpless.

Then again, what choice did I ever have?

I always have to end up hurting someone. Somewhere, somehow.

Don't you think so?

But I get hurt too, about the fact.

Anything.

//Protection.

AT♥8:52 PM

Well, I'm not suppose to post.
There goes.
*

Heck lot of randomness. Not that I'm feeling random now, but I'm just feeling like.. celebrating. Instead of mugging. Which isn't exactly right since exams are coming up in uh, a few days time.

One reminder. Buy Shampoo.
Apparently nobody at home bothered to since we still have the other brand which I don't exactly like use, or rather, I prefer my previous one. Yahh.

Mann, this feels like a bad time to post.
Serious.
But hey, I feel hyped up.
*pukes*
Yeah right.
I really, really shouldn't be posting.

Nevermind. *flicks hand*

Went to the library with Gerlynn and Feyra. WELL, I overslept again, so I was late by approximately 10 minutes. It's like I woke and fell asleep again. =/
BUT, I wasn't the latest. Dear Feyra woke up at 9:05am when we were meeting at 9:15am. (: And she took a TAXI. From Clementi to Jurong East. Right!

And if you want to know more or less what we ended up in the library, simply pop over to Gerlynn's blog. Not that I'm not going to talk about the day's *accomplishment*, but just pop over there to see it from a different point of view.

After having breakfast at Mac (we too saw a couple of NUSHS students- Stephanie, Nic Wong, idontknowhisname1, idontknowhername1 , and idontknowhername2 ), we head over to the library which opened at 10am.

After attempting to study, we head over to the cafe to eat cheesecake or choco muffin. Cheers. (As always, my phone's vibration remains mega-loud.)
Then study again, then had lunch with ZiKai and Ivan (who came over to JEC after math class) at KFC. ZiKai attempted shooting ice at me, but unfortunately I'm more skilled in doing so. =)

Then we had chat about lots of random stuffs (: along with celebrations after exams. (i hate history; bet pan's gonna get the highest) Btw, I (finally) paid my library fines. The total added up to... $17.25. I'm going ransack that place upside down after the exams! After that Ger Feyra and I did some silly stuffs. ;]
Home we went at 3:30pm.
I took the bus, while the other two took the MRT.

Then I did nothing at home. Though I was wondering about ways to murder people. Not that I'm going to, but it's probably a challenge to think of a fool-proof way. And I know I'll never kill someone because the guilt will be too much for me. (:
Sorry if you think I'm being random. gaAh.

Love listening to Hoshi Akari (Busou Renkin 1st Ending)! Apparently that was the song I was listening throughout when I stayed up till 5am that particular day. Sis was playing it on the piano.. or trying to; hope she'll learn the notes one day. Odd thing is, in my WMP list, right after Hoshi Akari is Bouken Desho Desho.

Sis just went out of the house; that leaves mum to realise that we're the only two to have dinner at home today. That means I'm either going out for dinner later or mum's taking away. =/ I'd prefer staying at home, but a walk outside won't be too bad either.

Another thing. I figured that all my watches are pink. (= Then I keep switching the one that I wear. However, I'm not so *in* into wearing a watch and most of the times you won't see me wearing one for more than a month in a row. My first watch was Yellow, though! Now this's random.

It's as though I'm typing my blog post by paragraphs today; I don't like putting asterisks after every single paragraph. =/ So mind me if I jump from topic to topic once in a while!

*****

Somewhat what Ger Feyra and I came up with in the library-

OF COURSE, it's not like we're gonna strike out everything. These are just *PLANS* and *DREAMS*. Heh. What's with my emphasis?

The Must, My Plans, Wanted but HARD, and Their Ideas.

After exams!

1. Ice Skating
2. Watch Spiderman 3
3. Take Neoprints
4. Kbox
5. Shopping (bugis and orchard)
6. Ger's house
7. Airport (o.O) [their must, but im gonna tag along!]
8. Escape Theme Park
9. Night Safari
10. Swimming
11. Cdans
12. West Coast Park
13. East Coast Park (golf?)
14. Science Centre
15. Sakura
16. Ahmed's house (?)
17. Go Library
18. Play PS2
19. Go Ger's house to watch My Girl
20. Go Siming's house to slack
21. Go KaiQi's house to play
22. Bring KaiQi & Kailin for piercing
23. More cafe!
24. Make New Blogskin

Stuffs to get
1. Clothes
2. Valkyrie Profile 2 Guidebook
3. FFVIII Necklace&Ring Set
4. MP3 Player
5. Chocobo Racing
6. Haircut
7. FFX Necklace&Ring Set
8. Baggg
9. Jacket
9. Shoes
10. Pencilbox
11. Wallet

*****

ALL THE BEST TO EVERYONE FOR UPCOMING EXAMS!
Chua.

AT♥5:03 PM

Sunday, May 06, 2007

Ughh. Only one exam's over and I feel like wanting to celebrate.
I'd better kick that dream off my mind at the moment.

Anyway, I figured that I keep dreaming. Dream, dreams, and more dreams. I mean, in my sleep. Not during lesson.
Feyra called me this morning; else I'd have overslept again. Like always. Since I was dreaming. Tsk. Well my dream was regarding some adventure thing (again) and I'm quite sure the call came when I was talking to Pan.
Okay. So I stared at my handphone clock before crashing back onto the pillow and staring into space again. Apparently I distinctively remember waking at 6am odd, feeling surprisingly more awake than a usual school day before 7am.

Not that I slept early; 1:50am?

(Good. I'm back to my normal self.)
Or almost.

QingYu came over to teach me some Physics stuff. However, right now, I'm blogging while sis and QingYu are playing.. Playstation 2. For odd reasons that dusty piece of metal must always be taken out when it's my exam weeks. Oh, well.

I'm heading to the library tmr again.. today was spent entirely on teaching Feyra math. *wince* FEYRAAAAAAAAA!!!! o.O
And tomorrow maybe a little bitty of History and Chem. AW, shucks. I'm soo dead. (:
And I don't get the left or right hand rule.. well maybe a little bit, but not entirely. Some recap:
Middle finger - Direction of the (holy) charge/ current
Index finger - Magnetic field
Thumb - Force.

I miss my games. Like PS2. Haha.
Just gonna study a little harder for the rest of the week.
Who cares about bio and stats at the moment since the exams are next week!
Tsk. Anything. Screw the history 2 hours paper. I'm so dead.
Tsk.

Chua.

AT♥9:23 PM

Whooots;
I must be the one of the few retards staying awake at this hour.

I think it's just me wanting to disobey dad, for instance. The more he want me asleep and he tries to sit in the living room with a threatening look, actually, not threatening at all. The sight, or the presence of him at this hour irritates me. I don't know if he himself can't get asleep either or he wants me down in bed, but I'd think it's the latter.
Uh-huh, whatever. He told me to go on to bed at 1:40am and I know I'll have to. but I'll lie on the bed and read till he's the one who goes off into bed first. Unfortunately his daughter had this knack of staying awake. Apparently I know I'm not suppose to treat him this way; obviously not-
But if I do end up detesting a person so much, I'm not fooling around with him and his games. Those unreasonable actions; Blahhh. I don't even know what's wrong with me!

Oh, I'm being an idiot talking about all this again. *shrugs*
It's one big cycle anyway; there's no point.
(:

*

-curses off-
I'm obviously not controlling myself well enough for the past day. Not that I really cursed, but just typing mad makes me feel madder.
Maybe I should just stop thinking how ridiculously retarded I am posting about things that people don't understand and just blab out everything. Mannn, I don't feel like my normal self. I feel this this idiot whining away, being retard, thinking about everything everywhere, slacking away when its exams;
must have been the stress.

So now, what? Get yourself back into the track or drive the car crashing around. HEY, just make sure your car's good.

That sentence proved that I've chosen the latter.

Maybe I can find a way to calm my nerve somehow.

*coughs*

Later.

...


Why the hell did you have to do that for! You're driving me maddd. I'm not frustrated, I'm just mad. oO. Darn. *sniffles*.
I don't get what I'm doing, I don't get what you're doing. Maybe I feel as though I'm at her state currently, but feeling like this makes me feel like a perfect fool. I may ensure myself, though- I'm going get over with this feeling before I sleep since I know I'm going to make up my mind in SOMETHING; whatever the hell that is.

Great. Now I have a dejavu but I remembered the last time it happened, Chris signed in. I'm sure he wouldn't now. Phhhbbbttt. Some dejavu.

I don't feel like me. I feel like a mixture of EVERYONE else. Wonder why I'm venting my frustrations away like this; I'm just gonna hack of some of my feelings later on but I'm going to drive myself crazy (not; im far from it at the moment) for this very minute. Don't get why, don't know why.

*curses about something else*

Actually, not really cursing. Just don't want some people to just..

*curses again*.

There, I can't say it. Whateveerrr'.

I'm going to make up my mind and make you mad too. Then we'll be equal.
And I'll take the advantage of the element surprise, mind you.

And oddly (not) enough, I think I'll take back my word because I'm too soft. And I hate to admit this. Oh well, I think I'll give it a try to take back my little weakness anyway. Meanwhile I shall shut off MSN so that Feyra can have a nice phone chat with her boyfriend. Haha. Up till now I still have no idea how to spell his name because it's in Malay. Not that I'm that interested, anyway.
Poor girl - Brunei Malaysia Singapore. I'm thoroughly impressed.(:

CHUA.
Lights off.

AT♥1:15 AM

Guess what, I've decided to post about my Essay for one of my EL Portfolio. I have no idea WHY, because I think it's going to embarrass myself instead for the lousy writing. However, credits must still go to Sharlene for helping me about for a small part of the story plot! Don't give me opinions on my Essay; I know it's terrible. T.T

Actually I'm posting so that KaiQi and KaiLin can read it lah! I've always told them I'll show them one day but I keep forgetting to send the file over. Heh. This's only part 1 by the way.


Fated Necklace I – Escaping Reality.

Kylie. She was the young lovely girl with rosy cheeks, ever so optimistic, so outgoing and so beautiful. Like a flying angel, she brings endless warmth to everyone she meets. That was – until she found out that she had contracted a terminal disease. A strange disease it was; one that left doctors clueless despite numerous studies done.

Overnight, Kylie’s outlook of life changed. All those that were colours to her became either a despondent black or a bleak white. She lived through life as though she was not part of it. Her foster family neither mistreats her nor loves her as their own; it was as if nobody cared. All she felt was an awkward child who was simply out of place. “Was I ever meant for love?” she pondered.

Weeks and months went by and Kylie’s attitude towards life changed completely. The once sunny and carefree girl thus became detached from the real world.

One day while walking along a road, Kylie tripped over a stone and stumbled upon a little sparkling object on the ground. Ah, it was just something as unimportant as her life. She took a second glance of it, and upon further inspections, she could not take her eyes off it.

Kylie realized her mistake and swore that she ought not to look at in the first place. Despite this, her eyes remained glued to the magnificent sight. The pentagon- shaped amulet shone so brilliantly under the sun that Kylie was so amazed. She then reached out for the amulet unknowingly and touched it with the tip of her fingers.

In a blink of an eye, her world swirled and she fell unconscious. Slowly, Kylie regained her consciousness only to find herself in the middle of a frozen tunnel. Everything was pure and icy white. “Where am I?” screamed Kyle. As she shouted, her voice echoed along the shallow alcove where she stood. Without warning, the ice directly above cracked, sending dozen wickedly sharp spears of ice towards her. Kylie’s eyes were wide with terror as she ran, barely escaping the chunks of ice flying towards her. Only after escaping did she realize… she had no sense of direction; but trapped in a white endless maze.

Running around desperately for an exit, Kylie suddenly caught something moving from the corner of her eye. Stifling a gasp, she turned her head, and in view came Leviathan, a great sea creature that was rumoured to exist. Beside it was a black figure, muttering something from his lips at a speedily fast rate. At the very moment, Kylie felt frightened. Deep in her heart, she felt the fear to die. She had changed her mind; she wanted to live… and because she showed emotions and the will to live, her transportation to the other world was complete.

***

“Kylie…? You’re awake!”

The image of a wooden house slowly came into view as Kylie’s fluttered her eyelids open. Staring at the two strangely familiar people standing beside her bed, she muttered out in amazement, “Mum…? Dad…?”

“What’s wrong, Dearie? You’ve fallen asleep for one whole day! Your father and I were so worried. I’m so glad you’re awake now!” Mum exclaimed while hugging Kylie lovingly. For the first time in here life, beads of tears trickled down Kylie’s cheeks as she wept between her mother’s arms. Oh! She had finally gained the love she had yearned so badly from her biological parents.

For the next few days, Kylie led a life full of happiness, with endless smiles and laughter together with her family and friends. She no longer had the usual aches that came along with her strange illness, and her life became colourful once more. The path she walks now is embroidered by ornate flowers and luscious plants; separated from the gnarled trees by a tall gate – her past. She wanted to forget all of them, every single moment. All she wanted was to live a fruitful life in her new world.

One week later, Kylie went out of the house to pick a couple of roses for her mother. With the wind rustling the leaves and blowing on her hair, Kylie gently blew the dandelion she picked. What an innocent act it was as she stood there watching the seeds being blown high up in the air, and then to watch it fall… beside him. As Kylie glanced up at his face, he spoke gravely, “It’s time to go back, Kylie. Back to reality.”



By the way, after a few weeks after I completed my essay, I realised (or think) that there's a Kylie somewhere in our school, is it? o__O

Chua.

AT♥12:08 AM

Saturday, May 05, 2007

[Last updated 11:18pm]

Here's one weird logic.

"I shall protect you for the rest of the life"

= "I shall kill you before I die".

Sorry, I wasn't the one who came up with this lame thing. The TV show did. =/
*

And you know what I was telling Cleo on 2nd of May?
"First we wanted February 5th to be 205's birthday but it has already passed. Next we just live through 2nd of May and forget all about it."
*

Aaron gave me this link!!! HAHA. Kills boredom.
http://www.clickclickclick.com/default.asp

*
...

Damnit; Tell me how.

I can't believe you actually made me mad today.
It's like me threatening you and you spiting me back.
You didn't do that for nothing.
I'm downright half frustrated; it's like softening my heart yet when I'm in anger.
Tsk.There!
I don't want to be silly and end up saying I'm gonna shut my phone off. I just want an explanation.
Retarded;
yet you're the only one who made me mad like this so long.
Don't you remember what I said?

Chua.

AT♥9:00 PM

Weird. I think Blogger has messed up some user's html coding because the template got pretty much screwed up for this account of mine. Yet not for the other. Oh well.

I feel great that Literature's over, although I must admit that the journal I submitted was terrible. Hopes that Ms Tan will be lil' more leniet though I'd prefer a peer review for the project instead, just like my group.

Oddly, another thing is that I feel as though I'm the only person who is constantly aware of how short the time is for the class to split up. I know Gerlynn posted about it, but I felt as though I'm the only one thinking about it every time I look at the calender because I'd casually say there's only 6 months left and my classmates turn out pretty shocked.
Whatever; probably just the fear.

SO! Exams are approaching yet I feel extremely FREE. Simply because Literature took up so much of my sleeping hours and lost much of my focus for the entire week. I felt lost, stressed, exhausted, so much for my sickening math results, but I didn't have the energy for arguments or anything but still had to face the same quarrels among retarded idiots. BLEHH. I felt as though I'm always talking to myself because I'm the retarded one talking in riddles that people don't understand and so I eventually gave up on explaining them. It's not like they don't understand, you know. It's just that I'm terrible in phrasing. Not that everyone cares much about that, including me.

Anyway, I'm like "viola!" coz I got a ridiculous grade for Physics; a C+. I didn't even know I was so close to getting a terrible grade for Physics, it's as though I've lost track of the entire module! Honestly! As I reflect, I figured that I really slacked through the whole module though I pretty much understand the concepts. Lots of careless mistakes everywhere. oO. NO EXCUSES!

Then again, as I checked my Espace, I realised that I have gotten an A+ for my Euclidean Geometry afterall. That's because I went to tell Mr Low that I deserve at least 1 or 2 method marks in my test since I only made a mistake in the last equation.. and that two marks pulled my entire CA grade up. Viola.

Still! I can't believe how ridiculously silly I was to get a C+ for Physics. *whacks head*. I'd better make sure I'm in a good mood on the day of my exam- After all, like Sharlene said, mood really does play a big part when you do some stuffs.
(Btw, have anyone figured out the difference between I use for "Kaiqi" and "Sharlene"? Hehs.)

Then again, *switches topic*, I'm gonna get impressed by the adorable Feyra. Why so? Her dad gotta do some job in Malaysia, so his whole family's moving there. And so, for the neat summary; Feyra's in Singapore, her family's in Malaysia, and her boyfriend's in Brunei.
Neat applause. Now she has to be in three different countries every holiday. Cheerios, darling. (:

By the way, I fell asleep yesterday. It feels like a break after Literature, though I don't think I really deserve it since I screwed all my stuffs up- don't know is it because of me myself or because mariel slacked off the entire thing. But nevermind, at least she let me do the final product or else I would have gotten an even worser grade for my Individual Component. Retarded us.

Oh, and when I say I fell alseep.. I meant that I was really tired. It's as though I was working every minute (and also had takeaway lunch on Friday in the classroom though I said you wouldn't catch me doing so again for the week) and I had to think of what to do later each time I lie on the bed to "sleep". Basically, even when i did sleep, I ended up not resting because I always dream- that cuts down my sleeping hours by two. So, yeah, 3 hours of sleep a day and it still wasn't enough. Don't get why I still had to rush at 6:00am of the day. Odd.

Back to topic of how I fell asleep. After getting home and posting at around 8pm, I was still dressed in my school skorts though I've changed my shirt. Then I crashed down onto my uneven bed (The mattress was there, damnit!) and dozing off alseep unknowingly. Then I *happily* slept on the very uneven bed (which made the sleep not so comfy but I was tired all the same) until it was past 12 midnight. Now that explained why I daoed everyone on MSN, waking up to see over 8 blinking conversations on the havent-been-switched-off computer. Mum must have been playing. After closing all of them (because I was too tired to reply; sorry) I crashed down onto the bed again.

Then I slept, woke at 2am. Found it ridiculously stupid sleeping on an uneven bed for nearly 6 hours, so I dragged the mattress off the bed into the living room, and chose to sleep on the matress instead of the bed instead. How smart of me. gaAh. I couldn't think, anyway! Then I crashed onto the matress (again) before waking up at 10am.

For the day, I revised a little for the past two topics for math (refreshment's sake), chemistry (i didn't understand at all, im so dead), and a little for physics as well. Apparently as one can see, I simply refused to touch History. Shucks. And Mr. Loke have yet to update the CA grade! Aaahh. Not that the grade will be very satisfying, I'm perfectly sure I'm at the bottom of the class for History.

And then I completed reading Harry Potter Fanfic. *hi fives kailin*. Forget it, it was more of a love story than adventure, so don't bother reading it at all. The ending was (highlight for spoiler) that everyone got married or have a love partner somewhere somehow. Harry with Ginny, Ron with Hermione, Neville with Susan, Fred with Iris, George with Shannon, Bill with Fleur, Malfoy with Pansy (but she got murdered by voldemort), Oliver with Lavender (HAHA), Seamus with Delmeza. It was a stupid fanfic; though I'm impressed at the effors fans put in to write a 659 pages long story. It wasn't very interesting, actually. I'd prefer JKR's book to be out on July 21st. (:

Anyway, my sis went for camp yesterday. She-brought-the-phone-charger. And my phone has one batt left, but I'll be switching it on every two hours to check smses. (: Let's hope it lasts till she's back. You wish. Anyway, JQ went off to Malaysia. Enjoy! =D He said he's bringing his laptop along. o_O. Hahas.

And since it's the reading days, I'm going to the library with Feyra tomorrow. Don't bother checking if I'm online, because I doubt I will be. Lol. Actually I'm more looking forward to the cafe (either choco muffin or oreo cheescake. xP. Chua's such a retard.) than the damned revision especially History. (I'm gonna dieee.) Should stop being idiotic; but why do I see ants crawling around the computer table? Ugghh.

Now I'm really going off track. Dinner today's fried rice; cheers.

Chua.

*



Which makes it really weird, because it means that I got a +0.1 for 40Wt for my 2nd module compared to my 3rd, yet I got an A for it. Maybe our sch just calculates it weirdly.. not that there's any difference between an A or an A+ in our CAP's calculations. Oh, and of course, screw VIVA.
*

Sometimes I wonder if sacrificing too much for such reason is right.
Or protecting both parties would deem safe but difficult.

AT♥6:52 PM

Friday, May 04, 2007

Since when did she become so purely innocent in the small part of her mind?

I gazed into the sky just now.
Not that there were any stars... at this hour.
Maybe, later?
I like the feel of the wind breezing against my hair when I stood by the window..

And my thoughts made me feel so pleasant.
Which probably occurs only so rarely..

Seems like I'll stick to my own little definition. (:

Chua.
[updating later; maybe]

AT♥8:06 PM

Odd.
It just seemed a little hard.. nowadays?
Hard, to what..?
No idea; maybe just everything.

Probably because there's the big workload from Literature; or maybe because the exams are coming up. Just Stress?
Yet, not really.

Told ya'. Odd.
but hard. I can't even remember my dreams.
Okay, there's no link in what I'm saying.
Blink.
*

Alrighto'.
You won't see me having take away lunch in odd classrooms (regardless if its 205's, drama room, or some random empty classroom) ANYMORE! I literally had half my meals in non-canteen for the week.

Lit Drama is OVER!!
And now for a little more details for elaboration. (:
We didn't do badly at all! Actually maybe a little; but I'll talk about the funny stuffs that happened. Grade: Between 23 to 25 over 30.
Cheers! [ Thanks Director (BS), Set Designer & role as Father(Ash), Program & Promotion Designers (Jean and Feyra- along with her role as Clerk), and Mariel (Lighting!)]
My role was Costume Designer and role with Friend & Doctor. (:

So! How our Drama went and the odd mistakes...
First thing: I don't remember the order of the scenes.
Not that it affected the play very greatly. I think!

Introduction:
Hilarious. We didn't know we have to do one, so it turned out last minute. Like when we tried greeting Ms Tan we ended up, "Good Aftern..Good Aft...Good Afternoon.." until we went "1, 2, 3." Then Jean and I took over the short explanation of our play: Clerky's life and how much she has to sacrifice for the sake of her status.

First "problem" occured in the 2nd scene. Feyra and I were chatting about some new band in Somerset road, but Jean wasn't ready to come out and act her role because of the faulty "car". In the end Feyra and I extended our last minute conversation which was ridiculously crappy but not so much during the play itself *sticks tongue out* ;

Chua: Oh and you know, I think the band's gonna be really interesting
Feyra: Yeah, Okay! Let's head to the MRT then.

Mind you, those words aren't suppose to be in the script. But after that Jean came out. Yay. Save us the trouble of coming up with more last minute lines.

Second. It was the party scene and we were suppose to have some background Music. And so, it wasn't *ahem* working. In the end we were singing like idiots weird people, but I think BS forgot to say the line "take picture!" so in the end I gave the cue instead. Come to think of it, why am I always the one saying last minute lines? This just show the results of our terrible rehearsals. Haha. (: And Ash did well for that scene when he used the camera to take picture for the "photo". Ladidaa~

Third. I forgot one line in my doctor scene, but it didn't really matter since I just skipped that line. Doctor Scene was complimented by Ms Tan! Hooray. She said it sure was creepy.

Fourth. Feyra's Monologue. And Mariel by accident dimmed off the lights. oO. There! Lack of rehearsals in the Theattrette. (;

Fifth. Do you remember the time when our lighting went off for nearly a minute?! That's because we couldn't find Feyra's mask. Oo!!!! After that, Mariel switched on the lights before I was ready in position so I just skipped that scene (afterall, it was only one line), and so I whispered to BS to skip my line and continue the act. :D Nobody realised anything, hee!

Sixth. Ash forgot his lines in the final scene! So he went, "you... you..." and then he turned away, which was a smart move. Because Feyra forgot hers too and she went stuttering, so it was made as though both of them were suppose to stutter...? Something like that. *laughs*.

But the grade's really satisfying; at first I thought we'll have to do Alternative CR. Cheers for Lit Team.
*

After Lit Drama, there's still Lit Journal and Lit Costumes thingo. I've more or less completed them. Though not entirely completed YET. Oh well! Later.

Best luck for HCL Exam! (Though I think nobody will come to my blog at this hour). But heyy, best luck for exams to all my readers.

Chua.

AT♥5:01 AM

Thursday, May 03, 2007

Omg.
I'm like down right upset about my math grades.
...

Basically that means a terrible CAP. Shit.
Fuck it!
Chua's gonna stop all her crap;
at least she seriously has to try.

AT♥7:47 PM

It's 12:30am but more than half the class is still online...

AT♥12:30 AM

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

No, no, no.
You got it all wrong!

You aren't the only one who's in pain, who's hurt, who's.. everything!
I too got hurt, I too got pained, I too have wanted to tear, but I had to control those feelings?!

I'm not trying to be unreasonable here, but I get tired out too.
I don't know what to do, I can't even say why! Because I'll end up hurting so many other people. I don't even get a choice. I don't!

I just thrash the cushions across the living room and slam everything against everything else. But I didn't have the energy left because so much's used up.

I get hurt every time I hurt someone, did you know how important this is to me?
I could cry so much, so endlessly.
But it isn't going to work. That's why I despise the tears I shed every now and then.
I don't want you to understand, I don't need someone to understand yet..
I just want to express it out; maybe I wanted to say sorry for hurting everyone who cared so much for me; but I don't have a choice. I can't find one. I just, can't.

Currently, I'll probably find lying away the best choice possible; and trust me- I HATE IT.
*

Today was one of the worser Wednesday.
Mariel, you know how you ruined my day by making me shout at you for literally the whole day ever since morning. Then I had to wait 2 bloody hours for your jap exam to finish so that I can collect the documents from you which you stubbornly *held on to* even though I screamed to in the theatrette for more than 10 minutes.
Won't continue the elaboration- afterall, I wouldn't want to emphasize on how I ended up crying twice all because of this stupid thing, would I?
And mind you, I was hurt- but you thought you were. (not referring to mariel.) I hate you so much for that because you didn't even realise I was in tears.
*

I had so much work to do today that I was feeling unbelievably stressed earlier the morning. Not only was I unlike myself in the ridiculous way, I wasn't in the mood for a joke at all. Oh well, what a disappointing day.
*

Now for the more random topic. Apparently I was reading the harry potter fanfic and had some comments on it; but I might end up revealing some spoilers for those who has yet to read it yet- so highlight below only if you're wanting to read the spoilers!

Apparently in the fanfic, Ginny and Harry turned out to be together in the early chapters, which proved highly satisfying to the readers though it turned out more like a love story because of the endless kissing. However, I would think that JKR would prefer to torture her readers a little bit more by making us watch them suffer or something before they end up being together, eh?

Waiting for 31st July!
Anyway, very unfortunately, my sis said, "don't EVER bring the Deathly Hollows out". Whereby she meant when we get em' in July. Simply coz (gee) I accidentally stained a smalllll part of the book with milo when I brought it out to school to read. =/
But she got a little lot more protective over the upcoming one coz we got the limited version with artworks and stuffs! Haha.
*

Here's what BoonSiong told me today;
ABC Alliance: Ash, BoonSiong, Chua.
Ohh, funny. (:
*

Tmr's lit drama. Hope it goes smoothly!
Chua.

P.S. Physics due tmr at 9:10am! Please submit to me; thanks. (:

Good luck Lit members!

AT♥8:41 PM

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

[Last updated 11:20pm]

Oh, just a short post. I'm going to update later.

ONE.
I fell asleep unknowingly yesterday...
Well actually I chucked an extra mattress at home + blanket + pillow to the living room so that I can do some lit work as well. After completing TWO journals out of the SIX, I was so tired that I went to sleep on the bed before waking at 5am to sleep in the living room.
And thankyou Cleo for giving me a wake up call and to Jean for a wake up sms, if not I wouldn't be punctual for Lit Meeting this morning. xD.

TWO.
Lit Meeting was okay. The school locked the gate and our team saw no less than 15 people climbing over the gate. I mean, honestly, why did the school make the gate so short if you don't want people climbing over? Won't elaborate much, but anyway regarding lit, Mr. Ku didn't allow us to book the theattrette for tmr's mentoring session. Oh well! SHEESH.

THREE.
I wanted to do my lit journal or bio ppt when I got home. BUT, my mum's brother and his wife came to our house today. Along with three cousins (Norton, William, and Oscar.).

Norton - He's smart, and he's one good gamer. A little proud, but he's fine! I think he's around Primary 3 or 4 or 5?
William - He's grown a little chubby. xD. Around Primary 2 or 3? I have no idea, I'm probably not so good in estimation.
Oscar - I won't forget this little kid coz he's the one who stepped on my eye when he was a still a baby.. probably when he was around 2 or 4 years old. I was lying on the bed then I being the "nice and entertaining sister" then I covered the blanket over myself and he KNEW I was there but he stepped on me all the same. =/ Now he's a kindergarden kid!

But! I said I wanted to do my work. But now I have to regain my "nice and entertaining sister" status. Oooof!!

FOUR.
I have soooo much work left to do today!
There's 4 lit journals to go, half a biology presentation, study for physics quiz, do some miserable research for FPS since I'm the group leader, and also more lit stuffs for costume drama!!! gaAh. And we'll still have to go out for dinner later. *wince*

--8:50pm--

gaAh! My cousins are playing PS2. Burnout revenge again! Haven't played the racing game for agesss. x_X
Anyway! I was talking to Jaryl about PS2, and he has like so manyyy games (which were all non-original *ahem*) and I want CHOCOBO RACING! Can't find em' in Singapore anymore... *wince*. At least, I can't.
So, after the exams, I'm going to get my VALKYRIE PROFILE 2 GUIDEBOOK. Coz the game is freaking hard. o_O.

I've done 4 out of my 6 journals, hooray. Now I'm going to leave the other 2 to tomorrow while I rush off to watch my cousins play study for physics quiz.

--11:20--

Jq, it was a BIG MISTAKE sending that file to me.
I'm addicted, though it's not the final version. Darn! I'm so dead for the weekends. So dead.

*
Here's the lyrics of song with a very soft and calming tune--

Ten Million Tears by Emi Fujita

There's a candle still burning
on the wall is my shadow
So I won't feel so all alone
And your glass is still waiting by your chair
bits and pieces of us keep me companyOn a magazine cover
There's a picture of lovers
Walking hand in hand by the sea
In my mind I'm her and he is you
Tender chains of love won't set me freeTen million tears
I'd cry en million more for one more day with you
Tender chains surround my heart
Till we're no longer apart
Till that moment, I'll cry ten million tearsEvery angry word spoken
All the promises broken
Given time, each wound would have healed
I've rehearsed each word I sould have said
Missing you is all I seem to feelTen million tears
I'd cry en million more for one more day with you
Tender chains surround my heart
Till we're no longer apart
Till that moment, I'll cry ten million tears



Signing off,
Chua.

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