Actually I had an official post yesterday regarding being blue. But the computer restarted, so I assumed I was probably not meant to post it anyway. Since I was unable to recover post either. And so I didn't.
But everyone's blue, are they not? I'm not the only one. There's so many people I can name - people who I care, people who doesn't concern me; people who's close, people who aren't. Many. Tons-. The names flood my mind.
I wanted to post about seeing her grow up, too.
And I'm upset by a ridiculous reason; so down. ...
But better than the fact of not expressing myself at all; killing myself mentally.
I wish so much that there's someone whom I can make eye communication with... it'll save the trouble- so much.
Fake it, dearie.
*
I'm so heckingly worried about all my results. I know I don't understand Chem, I know I'm dying in Physics (with a freaking LOW CA grade that makes me down like anything) and I even did so badly for my HCL paper, and even math too. It's like screwing up everything.
oO
* I love everyone who I met this afternoon today. I felt so happy to be with the group of people I know I'd love to be with- they're the ones who made me happy.
Ger Stuart Jaryl Pan Ivan JQ XinYi Tiff- ! Oh yess I love alll of you. (:
Chua.
AT♥9:40 PM
Thursday, March 29, 2007
Lol. Chua is gay coz I've been posting nearly daily afterall. Well, you all know how I use gay is just different. Something like - retarded. woots!
So pan = gay = retarded? Nahhh. I'm not so mean to him. (:
Nono, pan is just GAY. not retarded. :D He's nice though!
But I haven't been posting three times a day, at least. Btw I still didn't get to beat my sis's minesweeper beginners' highscore. At first I thought her record was 10 seconds, so I was delighted when I got 9. After asking her once more, she said she got 6. o__O
Rawr.
I realised I have a pretty two distinct character for Chua and Yvonne, afterall. You never really see Yvonne being active in school- most of the time hidden under the thoughts of mine.
And I've been coughing till I'm out of breath. And my mum's still retarded; oh what the heck. I got really mad at her on... tuesday.
Yesterday wasn't awesome either, it's probably one of my worst days I have had to endure after a long while or something. Yeah.
So today wasn't a very happy day either, but at least I'm not depressed.
Anyway I was flipping through the handbook when I realised it's going to be April. Wols! Apparently Stanley's birthday is on FRIDAY the THIRTEENTH!! Hoooray. I bet he feels happily sadistic over it. :D
Then I'm glad next thursday's going to be friday. (: Ooooh no literature! Sad thing is my class will be one lesson lacking behind in Biology? Well, well. Chua hasn't been stretching at all, she's going to DIE tomorrow during DANCE.
And according to Angela, that might be a cheer practice next Monday, just for pure practice's sake. Something about 5:30pm to 7pm or what, anything. Later I forget all my stunts, then get murdered. o____O!
Get well soon my darling KaiQi! Who had ridiculously sprained her ankle again, of course. If I see her anytime around during breaks, I'll be sure to piggyback her randomly around the canteen again. ^-^
Nothing much to post about since I'm feeling neither happy nor sad, nor expecting anything, or anticipating anything. Either I'm going to be happy later, or just dead later (10:30pm will decide my final mood). Then I'll survive through tomorrow's lesson and find out about my new feeling at 10:30pm again. Then I'll sleep, and decide if I should stay at home if I'm demoralized or just get out of house and play billiard. Oh yes dearie'.
Chua. *
One last thing. Playing with a penknife is OKAY. Just don't apply force and you won't get hurt.
I'm being ridiculous. Penknives are fun, in a way. I mean, yeah. Play with it with no force and you'll understand everything about them. Stuffs like how sharp things work. (:
AT♥8:04 PM
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
I didn't really want to post at first, but in the end I still did. (:
Because-
I think I'm right. I really like reading my Archives. They let me straighten out my thoughts sometime. *
Today was a normal school day, only thing different was that we (Art students) had to head to ACM! It was a little retarded but fun anyway.
I had mint ice-cream, which probably didn't make my cough any better anyway.
But then, it reminds me of Swensens! Which in turn lead to Sakae! Hecks, that's so much food that I'd love to eat. Haha! (: Ooooh gooody. Wait till June, darling!! Yipeee.
Anyway I think I'm SO going to screwed up my studies this Sem. I got a D+ for my Physics Test overall, which made my CA marks totally a whack. B-!!!! .___________. That's just plain SAD.
Oh yes, before I forget to mention (since I'm wanting to have dinner) our class changed our seating arrangement too! Apparently from where I'm sitting I can see Stuart and Pan straight. For some reason I think Pan's a little bored out on his seat or something, because he really doesn't talk. oO Aww. But I think Pan's nice! Aside from the fact that he's a little gay or something. Haha, really! I think he's cool la. In a way.
Physics went at a faster pace today, because I don't remember copying down the notes as fast before. Still, I didn't catch everything. ): And I think I screwed up the quiz too, Oh, what's happening. I didn't do well for HCL test either, let alone my math!!! Nooooooooooo.
Chuaaa.
She's absent today; save me from the thinking-
AT♥7:50 PM
Monday, March 26, 2007
This is the other-
Oh my god. I realised I haven't been bitchy for so long. That was a - sudden realisation?
Maybe when I say "bitchy" it means dealing with my sister or something. For some reason I've came across to find out that it's pointless to argue with the immature little kid. Or maybe other random retards. Probably just came across less recently.
Innocence isn't my type. * Chua.
Woots. (: I managed to write for 60 minutes for History Test...? I'm not saying my answers are right, my scores are going to great - I'm cheering because it's over.
Then I'm sick. How am I suppose to do my Literature CR? Nevermind that. -Ponders- MAYBE I can skip thursday. I have a valid reason after all. But then, of course I won't play truant. I'll only skip lessons when I feel real bad, kay? Anyway I'll probably recover by that time.
So.. tomorrow's tuesday? I'll try to complete as much of my lit CR tomorrow. Since I'm skipping PE tmr, I might as well make use of the two hours to do Physics or something. That way I'll get more rest today? (: Anyway, my team's proceeding to Botanic Garden (venue changed) tomorrow. The positive part is that we'll probably completely Bio Proj ASAP, while the negative is I mightn't enjoy myself at all. Don't know, but I'm sure I'll still enjoy it by at least a tiny bitty. :D
Weds. Should be.. simple. I mean, all I have to do is to survive through 2 bloody hours without understanding the notes (mostly). After that will be FPS. Then have to head to ACM for Art.
-won't go any further. ^-^
*
Anyway, school today was okay I think. Only thing is that I used up ALOT of tissues? Gerlynn went to buy 16 packets from the bookstore, though I haven't used up all of course. :D
Lols. Anyway, I was so "engrossed" in doing History Test that I only realised Stuart had moved his seat to beside Gerlynn at 8:50am? Hilarious. Anyway, yeah. I used up alot of tissues, I think the whole class saw it. -hahs-
Then break. I ate egg sandwich.
Chinese. Unnecessary as usual, perhaps? English was okay.
Lunch. No appetite, so all I ate was 2 Chawanmushi and 1 box of sushi? Wasn't what you can call filling; so I'm pretty hungry now. oO
Math. Was okay. Quiz. I think it was hilarious because of how the question was phrased. Though it can be nicely represented as triangles, Mr. Low had the creative mindset whereby he turned them into trees, pole, and a school. Rawr!
Then I accompanied Gerlynn... and felt sick. So I coughed till I teared (means that i'm not getting any better) and almost vomited, but the sensation just wasn't great enough. So I ended up buying some sweets which will ease it. (:
Left school at around 3:30pm; measured temperature - 37.5? I think it's okay, maybe hope it doesn't get worse. *
I had a nice dream though. That I had a guardian angel somewhere. Sounds retarded, but reasonably nice and innocent?
Talking about dreams, I really wanted to talk about one I had about a few weeks ago. It was regarding a broken chain. Does it mean anything?
Chua.
AT♥4:36 PM
Sunday, March 25, 2007
all your fault that I end up blogging. HMph.
alright, I was just being silly... oO meaning I was accusing no one.. maybe just the computer, huh? *
ANYWAY, THERE'S HISTORY TEST TOMORROW. AND I DON'T FEEL LIKE STUDYING = FAIL AGAIN. BUT I DON'T WANT TO FAIL. BUT THAT I CAN'T HELP BUT NOT TO STUDY BECAUSE IT'S SOURCE BASED QUESTIONS SO WHY THE HELL DO WE STUDY FOR? I HAVE NO IDEA. -WHACKS-.
*
So, yeah, anyway. I can't bring myself to do anything as long as.. i think of history test. Really. Sigh How many students understand... paragraphs of words? 12 pages long? Do you have any idea about the mega big drop of number of students taking history module next semester? -___-
But heck, students aren't allowed to insult any teachers. So we take this nice and smile. (:
Rightt. -___________-
*
I feel a little regretful about missing cheerobics yesterday... but I couldn't help it, considering the workload i have. Still! I really, really, really wish to watch them. :( And youtube resolution sucks, of course. -__-
so I've decided! I'm going to watch cheerobics next year. Open category!! One year to go, my dear. *
Anyway, yeah. so screwed up. Everyday before history test I'm like this. And then the next day I fail it with ease.
That's just wrong.
Anyway Gerlynn has been posting so much recently, haha. Nice entertainment, dear one.
This week, after history test - shouldn't be too bad. And hopefully I'm right; sometimes I'm VERY wrong. Yeah, perhaps.
And maybe I'll learn how to spin a pen. And maybe I'll save up more for my Tatty Teddy too. Oh yes. miserable. *
I was going through in my mind today regarding one of the biggest mistake I've made in life - also the only regret thus far. That's why experience is a hard teacher - it gives the test first, then the lesson. It's something like being an addict. If you choose the wrong path, you'll get used to the mistake. Then you're in serious trouble. Basically meaning that I really choose more sensible routes. Like not sitting on the window sill. No matter how tempted I am... But I'm very tempted. Really.
That's why Chua's random.
Anyway, Ayumi's songs rock like anything. JunLe agreed with me. (: Not only are her MTVs are nice, she's been *red* ever since don't-know-how-long-ago. Did I ever tell my readers that her concert tickets got sold out within 3 hours?
Unlike Jolin (Tsai). Which in turns remind me of something else to mention- Not only is she unable to sell out her tickets (despite the endless advertisement on TV, SMSES (yes I received one from singtel) or magazines etc, she's just a character I dislike. .___." Chua sounds like some retard.
Anyway, her picture was the cover page of Teenage Magazine, which was the reason why I didn't want to buy it at first. Temptation got a better hold of me and I still end up buying it... and it was one of the worser teenage magazines as well, actually. So... waste of 3 bucks?
yeah.
Mum's driving me mad recently (remember that it's near equal status between my mother and my sisters). If she's still going to get addict to the online game (my sis half fixed the HP computer) when I need the com for my work or something I'm going to be urged to press Alt+F4. Only if she refuse to shut the damn thing down after 5 urgent minutes.
I think I sound mad today or something...? o.o Well I'm not. (: Just random. .__.
rawr. soo... after history tmr and if I get to pass the second ordeal (completing literature CR) then my life will feel a little better until the next test (Physics). which is... unlikely? CR sucks. *sniff*
Well it's nine. both the time and the weeks left to june.
Nitex- Chua.
AT♥8:27 PM
Saturday, March 24, 2007
I'll just post once before starting on my work since random things have been happening this afternoon. or morning.
And I'm listening to the three camp songs now. o-^ Para Para Sakura, Mambo No. 5, and Upside down.
Love the camp, the dance, the instructors, the challenges, the class! *
Righto, I'm down with sore throat, cough and flu at the same time. Isn't what you can call a very good combination, but in the least I don't have fever for the moment. (:
Dad bought some pills for me, I think he probably heard my coughing frantically for the past whole night. Didn't stop tearing until this morning, rawr.
Anything. Anyway, my mum's no typical mother. Don't know how you'd say it, but maybe the ideal mother (or in general terms) will probably be the kind who bothers about talking to your teacher and about your grades, making you sure you don't play too much, no vulgarities etc..? In some other cases maybe they talk to their own children about their social life or sort. In any case, they still bother about their child till sometimes they get mad or crazy etc. Well, at least that's normal.
And then, my mother gets really abnormal. Aside from the part that she isn't sure how my school life is like, let alone my social life obviously, she's a blur queen. Lol. Yes, a mother's status is still higher than yours in any case. But for my family's case, my sisters and I know very well that her common sense is no higher than ours. Seriously. So in a very weird stupid ridiculous wrong way, we talk about her as though she's our equal, yet with respect.
Okay, maybe you all don't get what I'm trying to say. Haha. Anyway, she's no role model or something, of course. Aside from shoutings and random nags, she plays the computer. Yeah, most mothers don't even know how to use the computer... But then it gets really hilarious when I had this conversation with my sister during lunch just now..
Me: Sis, you know the times in the past when Mum always tell us not to play the computer too often, let alone shouting vulgarities all for the sake of a game? Sis: Yeah.. huh. Me: And then now I hear her saying "王八蛋，臭鸡蛋，气杀，etc.?" Sis: That's why we should record them down and show her next time. :D
Well, of course I'm not complaining. It's just a new different cool way of living up. (: But then, once again, it's just for me to emphasize why it's particularly useless to bring my mum to any weird random talks, or MTP sessions, or get her to talk to my teacher... you know. So I'm freaking fortunate to have an older sister who turns TWENTY-ONE this year. Woots.
HAHA. I wonder if teachers read this? ^-^ *
Watched Busou Renkin just now. Aww Tokiko's so sad. Coz Kasuki left her or something? Waiting for next Esp. *
Tatty teddies are adorable and- I can't spin a pen.
Chua.
AT♥3:53 PM
Friday, March 23, 2007
My social life's failing me.
AT♥10:03 PM
Hello readers. (:
Well this one shouldn't be a very long post, since I won't be going through every hour of the day. just same main points. Ladida.
Anyway, yeah. I'm down with sore throat. And drinking water every minute of the day or something. Should see yesterday, the straw was in my mouth nearly all the time. And i split water over Debra during HCL lesson. .____."
Yesterday was okay, I think. Thursday it was. After investiture, we were released at around 7:30pm, though we stayed till around 8pm for clearing up/ making up random cheers with Weiren's name/ etc. After that, 12 of us went to Sumo's house for dinner! :D
Whee it was damn cool. Coz they served us extra free food (8 sushis & 1 plate of fillet for every 4.) And TTS was impressive coz he ate up the whole chunk of WASABI. O-O! He said he regretted it though coz he ended up tearing. Ooh. I don't eat wasabi btw. (:
Went home with Xinyi, we were talking about rather hilarious stuffs. lubb.
*
Friday. Reached school at around 7am. For investiture purposes.
And so, after investiture, there was REFRESHMENTS for us SLs! YAY. Haha. Not only are the food nice I get to save money. :D There was fruit tart, then this funny choco thingo that I really liked (I don't like having chocolate very often actually) and sandwiches etc. Heck, it was still nice and worthed it anyway.
After that was Physics. I didn't really understand Ms Lim, so if I have the chance I'll go through the notes again tmr. Had test too, I think I seriously sucked at that one. No kidding.
After that was FPS in the auditorium. It was practically a waste of time. And guess what? Instead of tearing out the piece of paper from my sketch book (containing the words from the letters S C A M P E R), ger submitted the whole thing. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT. No sketch book for FIVE days (fortunately not 7). -sob-
Left school at around 4pm I think. After I got back home, I just went to sleep. Seems like I'm tired. And I coughed terribly too. Till I ended up tearing. .___. So now Chua's down with cough and sore throat huh. Hecks. may I recover over the weekends. (:
I'm going out with my biology project team on Tues!
Chua.
AT♥9:32 PM
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Okay. Let Chua be stupid for a while or something, okay? (: *
Yay. Let's talk about tatty teddy. The best word Chua uses to describe them is adorable. Hooray.
There's Tatty Teddy keyrings, teddies, wrapping paper, cards, ecards, endless image... etc. But for some reason I seldom come across Tatty Teddy stickers. Oh, anything. oO
But heck, guess what? I've decided I shall really save up and buy another of those little Tatty Teddies. I think it's okay, since it's 15 bucks. Just let me save for a couple of weeks haha! (: Yay. Meaning -
No random soft drinks, no random sweets, no random snacks from Vending Machine. *big hug* *
History sure repeats itself. -Sigh- No comments. Maybe I'm just being silly. Who knows. Talk about straightening thoughts. Seems like I'm going to think about it again tonight; but hey - at least I figured out my final step. *
All I did was to learn to grow up by myself with barely any guidance-
Chua.
AT♥11:35 PM
A little creepy. Oh, but heck it anyway. (: *
First thing, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JONG! I'm really really sorry I forgot. :( I thought it was 21st April instead of March. Really guilty. Sorry. T.T
but still, happy 15th. :D *
Today's Weds has been replaced by Friday's timetable so that they can have a proper seating arrangement for the investiture this upcoming Friday. Because minister is coming. oO Anything, I'm fine with it. We just walk up, bow, and then come down. Ladehdoh.
So - morning was seating arrangement along with a talk by Mr. G. Tan. Entertaining. (:
Then break when I ate a mixed fruit tart.
Then Art. First Mr. Chua was telling us about different ways of drawing etc. For 1 hour? I was bored, and drawing on the white board beside me. After that was hands on on our collage. Erpsy. I didn't get to complete it, since there was a lack of pictures. Nvm, I'll do it in school another day. *
Then lunch. Half hour - bought from Chinese Cuisine. Less heaty than Western Stall anyway. The other one and the half hour was spent on dancing Para Para Sakura, Upside Down, or Mambo No. 5. LOVE 205' dance!!! AND also spent on doing History Project.
And guess what?! HAHA!!! Since our history project is regarding the skit, I'm acting as Mahathir, so they wanted me to wear some malay clothes. Apparently Ash brought some, and so I put the top on. It was HUGE!!! But I love it. Feels good feels cute. WAHAHAHA. I really liked it. Whee! Ash took a picture of me wearing em', but I'm not sure if he saved it. Oh well, if he did I'll put it on here. (:
After 2:30pm, I headed to where the Dance CCA board was so as to decorate it with Angela. It's all black and silver now, haven't added the other colours in.
After that went home.
Hung out by myself for a while.
Then came home?
Had dinner.
And here I am. (:
poncho! *
I love Tatty Teddy. *big hug* They - are - so - nice. And expensive. *sniffs* I want as many of those cards they've got regardless of the pattern, I want as many of those tatty teddies they have up there regardless of size, and I wouldn't mind extra keyrings to hang on my pencilbox either. `lubb.
*
History's repeating itself again. This morning I was thinking, and I've straightened out my thoughts after all. Big W word. Maybe history will stop repeating itself halfway. But then, it already started... You're no exception.
Chua.
AT♥6:56 PM
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
Well, Mum was right. I almost fell asleep just after lying on the bed. Definitely tired then, it means.
-Aww.-
Actually I don't know if I feel like posting or not, but I'll do so all the same. Whee. (: *
Monday 19th March
Anyway, I forgot to bring my Pencil to school today, thus I didn't doodle on my table. :D I ended up using a pen and drawing on pieces of paper (if you truly bothered to go to my classroom you'll see weird drawings on the table). Isn't it nice? Lol.
History - For some reason I felt sleepy very suddenly at the later half of the hour. Didn't get what Mr. Loke was talking about as usual. Sheesh. ): Anyway, for once I thought Stuart won't be sending me an sms during history lesson. He then send it 5 minutes directly before the end. Ha-ha.
HCL - Mr. Ho never realize when barely anyone in the class is listening to him intently. I'm personally impressed by how he can actually talk and talk and talk detailedly about one single topic (E.g. writing compo) for a whole hour. Honest. Anyway I was practicing how to spin a pen too... not much of an improvement. Gee.
English - After Ms. Wong left, Ms J. Tan is the one taking over our lessons. We spent one hour writing on Mona Lisa since this module is on Descriptive Writing. -whacks head-
Lunch - Ate from Western Stall, spent some time on the top of the monkey bar and trying to balance while standing up...? A little dangerous though! I like hanging out at the fitness corner! (:
Math - Was usual. Learnt some stuffs about Triangles. SAS, SSS, etc and proving that ASS (angle-side-side) is wrong, etc. Ohkay.
That was about it for school. Stayed back to do some not-so-effective work. Anyway, Singtel sent me an sms about some discount 10% for Jolin's concert ticket. I think she can't sell them out or something. -.-" Compare her to Ayumi! Her tickets got sold out within 3 hours or something. xD
Anyway I took this EQ quiz and my result was 147. That is high. Maybe majority might think I'm a dirty liar in the quiz for all you know, but knowing that I did the quiz truthfully I was a little awed. Or maybe just treat it as an inaccurate test. Yeah, maybe it's just inaccurate. But heck it, I like people with high EQ anyway. Like instructor Benjamin said, if you have high IQ the government will keep you alive and if you have high EQ you keep yourself alive. How typical.
*
A mistake may prove fatal, as so I speak from what I experienced in the past. Seriously speaking, every challenge I meet up with is treated as a stepping stone-
*pause*
It's somehow good to learn lessons... another thing is how you apply them.
Blah. *
Tuesday 20th Anyway it was interesting when I was on the bus. For some reason, I was thinking if there will ever be an incident whereby a bus have to take a different route due to some ? reasons. Apparently, after traveling in the bus for a few more minutes later, part of the route of the bus journey was blocked. Basically the stop right before our school's. As it was only mend for one bust to cross each time, it could not drive past the route because another bus was blocking it due to some breakdown. Basically it went backwards before moving forward again at the right route. It wasn't exactly a very big change of "route", but dang, I never experienced it before until I thought about it. Dots. Well I gave the girls in my class their Bday present (with the exception of Ger because I don't know what to get for her.) Yeah, okay.
Then it was Math. I think it was kind of boring or something, because I don't remember doing much... I think it was just a lesson to refresh our minds on what we've learnt or something.
P.E. was okay, no sweat. As in literal, beside running 2 rounds the track.
After that was lunch!! Along with the break and released-early time. YAY, we were DANCING in the classroom! I LOVE THE MASS DANCE. But I think dancing with our partners are easier, seems like we all got used to it. -.- Don't know how to dance Para Para Sakura, but who gives a heck. We 205 all love Mambo No. 5! Ladida~
Chemistry lesson was 2 hours of miserable theory. And we have to endure it 9 more times. -___- Can Mr. Imbufe make the lesson slightly more interesting, perhaps? I don't understand his powerpoint slides either. gaAh.
After Chem was um. English. Anyway AikAnn fell sick with high fever! Hope he gets better soon. :( Same goes for Mariel, I think she had some headache or sort. oO Ms J. Tan was very nice! We told her that our class was miserably bored out and deadened by Chemistry that she allowed us to have a free period with the condition that we finished her assignment. Haha!
After that stayed back in classroom until 4pm to do history, before proceeding to investiture rehearsal. It was boring. -.-" At around 6pm odd, Gerlynn Hehao Raghav WeiRen HanSiang and I went to Clementi Mcdonalds to have a small bite/ dinner and we met Xinyi and Yi Chian. Righto.
Then I went back home, did some history and did some Art.
Um, basically a normal day. And a boring post. *
Heck, you don't know how easy it is. Always hide your weakness, then. One small mistake may prove fatal anytime. Regardless of thinking how I should carry out my next step repeatedly, I can't seem to get my mind fixed or right. Oh wait, maybe I do. I'll think again. *
I think I'll turn in to sleep now... oh well!!
Chua.
AT♥11:19 PM
Sunday, March 18, 2007
Hello. (: Chua's back from the camp.
There's tons of endless stuffs I want to talk about, so if I do get my chance to type out everything here, maybe it'll turn out to be a long post. But then, I don't know where to start.
I'll miss three of my instructors very much: Vanessa, Pillay, Benjamin! *
[This whole part is a VERY LONG yet more detailed version of the 3 days in the camp. Feel free to skip it and find the next asterick for a different topic.]
DAY 1 Friday 16th Reached school at around... I forgot. 7 odd, I think. Thus it was rather early. But I wasn't the earliest either, thus I went to the fitness corner with JiaYi, Stuart, and Uncle. Played with the swing and the monkey bar.
After that the camp instructors came over, and soon we created our 205 flag with a group name - HIGH 5! Instructor was Vanessa, hooray for her. <3>.o
Anyway, my class (we'll start addressing it as High5 now) first activity was High Elements. It was called Challenge Pole, whereby we have to climb up and step on a small platform, before jumping and attempting to catch a (bouncy & slippery & rubbery) "pole"? Two person in our class caught it firm and did a pull up each - PAN and STUART! [Woots, the gays in 205 are truly awesome!] P.S. I believe you all now know that the word gay is and never was meant to be an insult, but they just happened to be categorized under that name.
By then I believe it was pretty late as we had hours of briefing regarding safety reasons, thus we proceeded straight to Dinner, if I'm not wrong...? After a refreshing shower, of course!
Btw there's this event whereby we had to flip over a cloth with everyone stepping on it. You know, the usual rules. But we still did it (with Vanessa closing one eye) despite being the class with the most people! A bit chaotic hahax.
After Dinner was this activity called "Kidnapped". One person from each team is taken and hidden away, whereby the task of the team was to find them and unlock the chains tying around them with TWO keys. And how were we to get the keys? There were 20 choices, and we have to randomly guess the number from 1 to 20, whereby each chance was given after completing a small "task".
High5 was awesome. My class rocks, I love 205 so much. We dashed around to different places to complete the different tasks (since our guessing was not what you can call marvelous) - blowing 2 balloons till it burst, singing national anthem, shouting cheer with water gurgling in our mouths, sitting on each others laps in a circle, heck - i don't know what else. Anyway, the unlucky (but nevertheless fair) thing was our class couldn't get the 2nd number right. We got the 1st number within the first try, by simply luck, - and Vanessa was right, we did have our morale lowered as we tried repeatedly without success. Thus, Pillay decided to come over and help us by giving us a clue, which speed up the time we took to find our 2nd key, making us come first in this Kidnapped Challenge - the gays carried Timbo (aka Tudi x2) up high! Yes, one short exclaim: HIGH 5 rocks!
And without fail we were the best team. But still our instructors emphasized - there's always space for improvement, to become even better.
Yes, we were the best team. The loudest automatic spirited united hyper insane crazy (no intention of arrogance) - that Pillay ended up having a bond with our team. He gave us a short debrief with Vanessa that truly touched us, making our class even more bonded then ever (I believe everyone in the class realised it too, we all know how importance our class is to us.)
After that, we gathered at the Multi Purpose Hall (MPH) where we were to cheer and listen to the music and sing random songs. And they also played At the Beginning! Which I really love, thus I was feeling extra hyper. (:
Part of what's written in my Reflection Booklet: (in a cheerful mood) The camp with all its activities were awesome! High 5 rocks so much, it's the class spirit that's there. We're a never-give-up team and thus together we achieve more. I truly want to thank the instructors for making us scream and feel so bonded together as a class. I love the camp! And the music. xD.
And that was the end of Day 1, before lights out.
Day 1 Lights Out I neither slept nor didn't sleep. In fact, I was semi-conscious all the while. Basically meaning that I was awake, though part of my body was asleep. I kept turning around throughout the whole night, sleeping, observing my environment, scratching and shoo-ing away mosquitos, looking at the time on my phone, but yet sleeping soon.
Likewise, JiaYi was semi-conscious all the while too. WhaiPeng was suppose to sleep in between us, but she moved herself over to beside Nello to chat. In the end, both JiaYi and I were grateful that WhaiPeng actually moved, because both of us turned around so much that we nearly ended up as close 10cm apart only. xD!
Day 2 Saturday 17th So, yeah. I didn't really "wake up" when it was 6am because I'm "awake" all the time, but seeing Gerlynn sleeping so peacefully I didn't wake her till it was 6:15am. Went to have a shower (because I sweat SO MUCH in my sleeping bag - maybe because of the absence of a pillow) early in the morning (hooray) to keep myself cleannn. 2 mosquito bites. Yippee. That was reasonably little compared to the rest of the girls. o.O
As we were only to gather at around 8am, Gerlynn and I (we met hansiang halfway) went to have a walk around the "carpark"? - the space between 'canteen' and MPH - whereby we chance upon the instructor Benjamin. He was cool and fun to talk to, I ended up sitting down and chatting with him and asking him about all the haunted places in the campsite!
In fact, there's three that I heard from him. Hut 9 - Also the most haunted place so far. For some reason the hut is facing at the opposite direction compared to the rest, thus its light were shining on a banana tree which I remembered had some link to some creepy stuffs. (I forgot.) Anyway, a possession case even took place before, thus the hut was rather "forbiddened" to be slept in. MPH - And so it was said that spirits like to wonder around the place during night time. Once, an instructor's mattress was turned 90 degrees around (Horizontal to Vertical) while shaking vigorously in the middle of the night - while the instructor was shaken awake on the mattress. Female Toilet - As so said by Benjamin, female laughter or baby cries can be heard late in the night. Gee, thinking about it gives me the creeps.
Anyway, woots! Back to the activity. They (camp instructors) said that the girls were always late - actually we were taking our time because we didn't know we were late. Their time was 5 minutes faster than all our watches! :( Which was a little saddening because we were "framed"? But heck, "we just got to stop being late next time" was what we thought.
Water rafting!! Hooray for 205, we beat 206 in building the raft because it was more stable or so the instructors said. I forgot the explanation they gave. Anyway, we were unable to chuck the raft into the sea as it was high tide, unfortunately. Still, the class got wet for we entered into the cold cold sea to sing a song. Hahax. (: Love 205~ we rock;
Next Activity (after a short break for rinsing water over us) we get to prepare for our campfire performance. which I actually loved - dance rocks at all times as long as there's nice music! And so 205 practiced our dance steps with the music Mambo No. 5! Dance partner was Jaryl, on my left in formation is Gerlynn with Pan, behind is ChenYang and Nello (supposed to be Stuart, but Vanessa found that he dance real well so he dragged him to be her partner!), in front is Stuart and Vanessa, while on my right was Mariel with Ash. We screwed up the Chorus during practice...? But hey, at least we get more or less the beats right. -.-
Then we were given 10 minutes or something odd to shower, with a warning "Don't be late!" from Vanessa, but the girls decided not to shower but to simply change our clothes to another Tee with Track Pants (so that we won't be late.). And that's when us girls started getting crazy in our hut! xD. As you can see, the hut is not um, view-proof? But we were too lazy to rushed into the toilet to change that we changed in the hut instead. xP. But no, we covered ourselves with the help from another female using the sleeping bag. -.- Talk about lazy, but hey, we weren't late. After RUSHING! (Apparently I think we girls were distracted easily.. haha!!!)
Anyway, woots. It was once again High Elements, where we have to come down from the wall that's three stories high. That one wasn't freaky, but was a challenge of how to do it right and go down straight. I suck pretty much in that haha.
The next one was something I really liked. The Challenge Stations! (is that the name?) HIGH FIVE YOU ROCK LIKE ANYTHING. Because I know we broke tons of records. There were the different stations (I'm not sure if we remembered all)
Nitric River - Cross the "river" with only one rope in the middle between the two "islands". We grabbed our rope using a long plank nearby, getting Timothy to walk on it. xD. We're funny. Anyway, yep, that one was a success. Rebirth - Get through the hole of a tyre without toppling a cup of water balanced upon it. Woots! We did that one successfully too. Once again that one was regarding cool cooperation. Hooray for teh class. Tyre & Pole - Basically get the tyre off a high pole. We didn't get it off, but with some synchro the gays got it off simply by throwing it up!!! HAHA. High Wall - Get the team to climb over the funny wall. YAY, once again the gays ROCK. They are so cool, honestly. *sniff* And we did it within 6 minutes, which is... the best record ever? hooray for us.
I think I missed out some other stations, but nevermind that.. oh well.
Then there were dinner. Apparently 205 was on duty and "serving" the food. Gerlynn and I were running around giving apples to random people!! WHEEE. Apple. After dinner was then CAMPFIRE! Oh yes lovveee. xD.
It was mega hyper! Shout shout shout and happy screaming, I love the roaring fire though p6 one seemed more exciting. Anyway, all the classes were suppose to put on show their performance, yippee.
After 2 performances from 2 classes (I remembered it was awesome haha, all the classes were!), the instructors wanted two pairs from us NUSHS Year 2 to act as Jack & Rose in Titanic - and out came one from my class *poof* AHMED AND JARYL! And their acting is funnily interesting. -they made me think so much whether my thinking was right.- while the other pair was forced by the audience, WenXiang and Xinyi (only diff is they were named as Yellow Rose (faraday t-shirt) and White Rose (some random tee) respectively.) Haha, Ahmed and Jaryl was funny! While the other two were .__o?!
Anyway, a little more detailed regarding the dance performance - 205 was to perform last (it was kind of anticipated because the instructors wanted to "leave the best to the last"- (I don't know how good we were but as Vanessa said we had tons of fun) and 206 dance was fun! Upside Down was the song, I think Danielle and YanLing were the one who choreographed it? Cheers for 206 as well! xD. 203 one was rather interesting as well! (*hmph* regarding the Vanessa clap) And regarding 205, yooohooo. Apparently Jaryl agreed with me, this time round we didn't screw it up like the practice! Haha! Yay for my partner, yay for the class, whipee~ And we sang Happy Birthday to Mr. Ku because it's his birthday on Sunday!
After that there was a debrief, 205 had the longest debrief because the two instructors (Vanessa & Pillay) had so much to tell us about. They were awesome, really. And their debrief really made us think; it was very much touching and they let us learn alot. Really alot.
Part of Reflection in Booklet for Day 2: What a saddening conclusion in overall for the day. Once again we were reminded about the fact that 205 have to be split up by the end of the year. It's worse than upsetting, especially when the close is so close together. So close. I really thanked the camp for letting us know how much our class means to us - perhaps to let us know cherish each other with all the time we have now - 9 months are all we have. 205 you rock; I love all my classmates so much.
Lights Out Day 2 Haha! I fell asleep this time round - but still one of the last few to sleep. Semi-conscious at first, but nearer to sleep than awake. For example, I can lie in my sleeping bag as though I'm already asleep, but everytime Jiayi says "Chua's asleep" I'll suddenly open my eyes oO and say "Not yet... hahax," but I still fell asleep in the end!
Anyway I woke up in the middle of the night with gerlynn- I remembered because I lay awake for a long time during that short period of time. I was forcing myself to sleep, hearing sounds (there was barks from stray dogs and some tapping sound and some random sound which eventually got rather noisy --" so after *forever* I decided to check my phone hoping it was somewhere near Morning; I was about as surprised as gerlynn was when I told her the time in the middle of the night - 3:35am. O-O
Day 3 Sunday 18th Aka today. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MR. KU AND EUGENIA!
Anyway in the end I woke up at 6am, but being really tired I fell asleep without realizing and woke up at 7am instead. In the end I woke Ger up and we both packed and washed up and I washed my hair whee.
After breakfast (Bread with butter with scrambled egg and hot milo) it was Area Cleaning! 205 got the toilets. -___- Well, since we have decided that 1. we ARE going to clean it 2. the instructors wanted to test 205 spirit we started getting all cheerful and was cheering/ chanting some random stuffs like "toilet, toilet, toilet..." haha! we were all hyped up. Anyway, we wasted alot of water while clearing up the FEMALE toilet, and eeeuk, some females were simply disgustingly *eeeuk* irresponsible coz we found TWO sanitary pads. Yucks! And one of the two were found under the sink so as to "hide it", yucks! *bleeahh.*
Directly before Area Cleaning, 206 did the dance once more. Pretty! And after Area Cleaning, it was 205's turn. And the last one was much better because everyone more or less remembered the steps! Haha! Like gerlynn, I'd love to do the dance repeatedly as a class coz it's so coool! LOVE 205, LOVE CLASS DANCE`
Before we parted after the final debrief, our class sang a song to the instructors (in the tune of 拜年; bolded names are instructors)
Look around what do you see Vanessa being sexy Hippo is a big cool pig What about ET
ET comes for Jupiter won't get STD Potato is very mean take Gerlynn's teddy
Although Yana not sexy no more Behs already Pillay is very funky he gave us the key
Crazy Monkey is crazy Watermelon Trees Shaun is just like Ming Daoey he is fantastic
Benjamin is a great hit he tells us freaky stories High five loves everyone else too Sad to say goodbye
Which sounded pretty weird since it ended during the chorus. Oh, nevermind that! :D After half hour of photographs-taking (as a class, as year twos, and then with ben he rocks so much, and then with ben and ger together) and "autographings", we departed.
Which was undoubtedly sad. First because I know I'm going to miss the instructors; it's the same feeling I had for the previous camp. But this time I cried in the bus not because I want to go back to the camp - but because I was reminded by the fact that the instructors were the one who let us know how important 205 was to us, and the fact that they indirectly told us that it's time to start cherishing our friends for we're separating in 9 months. The big reality I know I'll cry about on the last day of school this year.
Then we started singing songs/ cheering around and making up random claps in the bus - then we were back to school. *
I LOVE 205!!! Really alot. ): I don't want to change classes... DON'T CHANGE!! *sniff*
Anyway I'd want to thank the gays so much!! Coz regardless of how retarded/mean they can be, they're still VERY nice individually!
Yepp. (;
--Lyrics--
Mambo No 5
Ladies and gentlemen This is Mambo number 5
One, two, three, four, five Everybody in the car, so come on let's ride To the liquor store around the corner The boys say they want some gin and juice But I really don't wanna Beer bust like I had last week I must stay deep 'cause talk is cheap I like Angela, Pamela, Sandra and Rita And as I continue you know they're getting sweeter So what can I do? I really beg you, my Lord To me flirting is just like a sport Anything fly, it's all good let me dump it Please set in the trumpet
A little bit of Monica in my life A little bit of Erica by my side A little bit of Rita's all I need A little bit of Tina's what I see A little bit of Sandra in the sun A little bit of Mary all night long A little bit of Jessica here I am A little bit of you makes me your man
Mambo number 5 !
Jump up and down go and move it all around Shake your head to the sound Put your hands on the ground Take one step left and one step right One to the front and one to the side Clap your hands once and clap your hands twice And if it looks like this then you're doing it right
A little bit of Monica in my life A little bit of Erica by my side A little bit of Rita's all I need A little bit of Tina's what I see A little bit of Sandra in the sun A little bit of Mary all night long A little bit of Jessica here I am A little bit of you makes me your man
Trumpet ! The trumpet ! Mambo number 5 ! (heh heh heh ha)
A little bit of Monica in my life A little bit of Erica by my side A little bit of Rita's all I need A little bit of Tina's what I see A little bit of Sandra in the sun A little bit of Mary all night long A little bit of Jessica here I am A little bit of you makes me your man
I do all to Fall in love with a girl like you 'Cause you can't run and you can't hide You and me gonna touch the sky
Mambo number 5 !
Upside Down My grades are down from A's to D's I'm way behind in history I lost myself in fantasies Of you and me together
I don't know why - I - I but dreaming's all I do I won't get by-I-I on mere imagination
[Chorus:] Upside down Bouncing off the ceiling Inside out Stranger to this feeling Got no clue what I should do But I'll go crazy if I can't get next to you
My teacher says to concentrate So what- his name was Peter the Great The kings and queens will have to wait Cuz I don't have forever
I wish that I - I - I could walk right up to you Each time I try- I-I the same old hesitation
[Chorus]
Somehow someday You will love me too One day will be the day when all my dreams come true
Upside down...
[Chorus]
Upside down Bouncing off the ceiling Inside out Stranger to this feeling Got no clue what I should do But I'll go crazy if I can't get next to... But I'll go crazy if I can't get next to... But I'll go crazy if I can't get next to you
At The Beginning We were strangers, starting out on a journey Never dreaming, what we’d have to go through Now here we are, I’m suddenly standing At the beginning with you
No one told me I was going to find you Unexpected, what you did to my heart When I lost hope, you were there to remind me This is the start
And life is a road that I wanna keep going Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey I’ll be there when the world stops turning I’ll be there when the storm is through In the end I wanna be standing At the beginning with you
We were strangers on a crazy adventure Never dreaming, how our dreams would come true Now here we stand, unafraid of the future At the beginning with you
And life is a road that I wanna keep going Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey I’ll be there when the world stops turning I’ll be there when the storm is through In the end I wanna be standing At the beginning with you
Knew there was somebody, somewhere A new love in the dark Now I know my dream will live on I’ve been waiting so long Nothing’s gonna tear us apart
And life is a road that I wanna keep going Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey I’ll be there when the world stops turning I’ll be there when the storm is through In the end I wanna be standing At the beginning with you
Yeah
Life is a road that I wanna keep going on Love is a river, I wanna keep going
Starting out on a journey
Life is a road that I wanna keep going Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing In the end I wanna be standing At the beginning with you Para Para Sakura 如樱花盛一杀那 爱情的花瓣 很快就落下 如嘴巴 对我很牵挂 别装蒜 吻我吧 就让它像回家 (像动画的主角去摇摆) 如我们有了爱会发出光彩 (左右高低双手像钟摆) 一个交叉 烟花都放出来
Mi ni ko I sakura ah e oh come and dance with me Mi ni ko I sakura ah e oh come and dance with me 乖乖龙地冬(Come and hold me tight tight) 乖乖龙地冬(Hold youre body right right) 乖乖龙地冬(Come and dance tonight night) Come and dance with me ah
Mi ni ko I sakura ah e oh come and dance with me Mi ni ko I sakura ah e oh come and dance with me 乖乖龙地冬(Come and hold me tight tight) 乖乖龙地冬(Hold youre body right right) 乖乖龙地冬(Come and dance tonight night) Come and dance with me ah
An Come Come Come Come Come Mi ni ko I sakura ah e oh come and dance with me Mi ni ko I sakura ah e oh come and dance with me 乖乖龙地冬(Come and hold me tight tight) 乖乖龙地冬(Hold youre body right right) 乖乖龙地冬(Come and dance tonight night) Come and dance with me ah
Mi ni ko I sakura ah e oh come and dance with me Mi ni ko I sakura ah e oh come and dance with me Mi ni ko I sakura ah e oh come and dance with me Mi ni ko I sakura ah e oh come and dance with me
come and dance with me(sakura) come and dance with me(ah) come and dance with me(sakura) come and dance with me(ah) come and dance with me
Larger Than Life Huh Yeah, ha, ha, ha, ha Ha, ha, ha, ha
I may run and hide When you're screamin' my name, alright But let me tell you now There are prices to fame, alright All of our time spent in flashes of light
(Chorus:) All you people can't you see, can't you see How your love's affecting our reality Every time we're down You can make it right And that makes you larger than life
Looking at the crowd And I see your body sway, c'mon Wishin' I could thank you in a different way, c'mon Cuz all of your time spent keeps us alive
(Chorus)
All of your time spent keeps us alive
(Chorus)
Yeah, every time we're down Yeah, you can make it right Yeah, and that's what makes you larger than life
(Chorus)
-END-
* Oh my god you suck so much. I don't even know; I don't even want to ask; so heck myself as well. You keep contradicting yourself. Endlessly. Your actions against your words and your actions against your actions. I laugh so silently to myself; how may I ever understand? Make your words and actions steadily next time. Please. It's confusing me. So I'm really confused, let alone the action to take. Maybe I'll just leave it this way till you intend to do something. That's the best method. I know that. But whether my heart goes along with it is a different thing. You suck so much. ._.
So do I with my hectic thinking. *
Laaaa- ddddayy. I'm sooo deadd. Because I don't know how to do history homework.
And I'm hungry. Wanting dinner. oO I took really long to type this post, huh.
Chua.
AT♥2:18 PM
Friday, March 16, 2007
*coughs* I just choked on water, but nevermind that.
Apparently I am a terrible predictor. Today's plan went totally haywire all because of one bloody freaking reason. (which made me shout fuck to the damn thing) the computer just corrupted all the programs making it unable to be switched on.
Okay, heck Acer as always (the desktop that has never been repaired) so you'd probably wonder why the big deal. Now here comes the big deal.
Today is the last day of hols (excluding 3D2N camp) - aka all my holidays assignment is inside the desktop. And then it crashed today, what the heck do you think I will be thinking? faggot. -____-
Thus, I didn't get to complete my SiHan (which I will definitely complete later since I left with only half (when the com crashed)) YET, but I have not started on HISTORY. Either I rush it on Sunday after camp else I'll submit my work late, definitely something I detest. *stabs computer*
Anyway, after going out with Siming to buy birthday presents (with the exception of Ger's & Stuart's [I hate both of you. oO. So hard to find.]) and camp items along with several stationeries (I'm a big money saver meaning that I buy tons of stuffs cheap but worthy, but still with occasional expensive treats like my bag :D) and a dinner, Siming now owes me TWELVE bucks. :D
And then I got back home at around 7:30pm, and then for some reason time passed until 9pm (now that I think about it, WHAT DID I EXACTLY DO DURING THE ONE AND THE HALF HOUR?!)
-2 seconds later-
(Uh oh. Now I remembered what I did for the one and the half hour. 20 minutes on anime, 25 minutes slacking, and the other 45 minutes... -shush-)(or if you're really that curious, treat it that i was gaining experience and feeling stupid. -.-)
By then it was 9pm, watched TV while packing stuffs for camp. Btw my bag turned out HUGE haha. Actually not that huge, maybe? I've seen larger ones... Anyway it just seemed like what I carry to school during my Primary Four years. So if you've seen me during Primary 4, you know what I'm carrying is just 2 bags - one on my back and other on my hand.
Whatever. It still seems huge in some angle. Oh, whatever! oO
And so to my dear readers, my camp is on
Friday - consider that I've already posted (1am) today Saturday - I won't be here Sunday - I'm released at 11:30am, so I think I'll post when I get back home
meaning you shouldn't and wouldn't miss me. (: but I'll give you a detailed version of my camp, I think!
Last thing, I want to thank my readers for coming repeatedly to my blog and checking out about my life (and majority of you like to keep silent, that's the weird part) thus encouraging me to keep on these posts!
With love, Chua.
AT♥12:36 AM
Thursday, March 15, 2007
Erps. Erps? Erps.
Weds - Yesterday.
For literature purposes, we went to watch Titoudao in the drama centre of the national library. Apparently the drama was nice, as expected. Only thing was we got bad seats, but it's not so terrible since we paid a cheap price for it compared to the actual ticket - $47 cut down to $17. Or something like that, i forgot.
It turned out to be half an outing for me and the girls from 205 who went (wp, feyra, jiayi, jean, cleo, mariel). We met at 11:45am (whereby i reached 30 minutes earlier due to ridiculously lousy estimation), had lunch together, and went shopping around/ taking neos until 2:30pm. Haha! It was rather fun, as a matter of fact.
After we were released from Titoudao, we went to take one more neoprint for odd reasons -.-! and then went to the mrt station with Wp to go back home. By then it was around 6pm! Well, I was suppose to go back home, but sis made a phone call to me saying that I'll just make my way to JP by myself (since it just means i'll take the train all the way to the end instead of clementi) and have dinner with dad, mum, sis. After that I bought a sleeping bag (because the one at home was taken by sis who has camp at the same time ._.) and sport shoes (blue adidas) for school.
And then home we went. Then I lost in hearts. Miserably. And the worst thing is I lost by luck not by skill. -___-
What kind of cards did I get? 10 Q K 9 10 A 2 K A 10 J K A
Right. So I ended the day with a sob. Aww. *
Woke up, did half my Si Han before calling Siming and asking her if she's free to go JP with me later. Apparently, yeah. Talk about how we can make last-minute meetings that's around 4 hours ahead of when we're going to meet. Ladida.
Going to JP to buy lots of stuffs - righto.
I'm going to continue with my other half of the Sihan, before my failed attempt to do history, before going out that is before packing, which is before my attempt from doing history. I'm such a good future predictor + planner. .____.
And a random video of my three crazy/ random/ lovely juniors! Yellow - Ethel Red - Christine Blue - Katrina
They made this video at one of my favourite spots - Under the table in the discussion room! :D
Or just this link if you can't view it due to firefox or other weird reasons: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rEuUyqmRrPA
Chua.
*
another random thingo 10 minutes later. (when jq came online)
-->--yjlevia--<-- says: RAWR -->--yjlevia--<-- says: OOOOOOOOOoooooooof. -->--yjlevia--<-- says: WHEEE. -->--yjlevia--<-- says: BLEHHHH. -->--yjlevia--<-- says: RAWRF. -->--yjlevia--<-- says: woof. -->--yjlevia--<-- says: meow. -->--yjlevia--<-- says: oink. -->--yjlevia--<-- says: *chirps* {(-Qudolf-)} Hols! says: chuaa -->--yjlevia--<-- says: yes? rawr. {(-Qudolf-)} Hols! says: no no that meant as a sound. -->--yjlevia--<-- says: oh. -.-
Chua.
AT♥5:44 PM
Another Random Post.
WHEE. Chua is SADISTIC- not!
Yadidaddiddahh. <3 Coz I was pondering just now if I had the time one day I'll write about this serial killer who does mass murders!!
omg, chua IS sadistic. *stabs*
*
Haha. I'm in a happy mood. For NO reason.
And I was feeling so screwed up just now. -.- I don't know how to do history; that's making me SICK. Like -puke- *vomits*.
This is not a post. Chua.
AT♥2:17 PM
Monday, March 12, 2007
No matter how innocent a person looks, cruelness will still exist.
Perhaps tonight I will cry myself to sleep- Perhaps Not.
Who am I trying to kid? Myself? Them? Everyone else? Them.
So I'll continue. *
Haha! Today was fun. :D. But I can't post about it now, sry! DINNER. xP
Chua.
AT♥8:23 PM
Sunday, March 11, 2007
Noooo I want to cry. T.T Feel so stressed from hw.
AT♥10:36 PM
Yeah I feel so badly screwed up. Basically I'm not in an entirely good mood; perhaps some ridiculous mood swing or something. I sure hope not.
I feel good to blog now. As in, heck everything out, dammit. -.-
Must have been today was ALL wasted. Morning to Night. (what the freaking hell) So screwed.
And each time I think of Mr. Loke (I'm miserably disappointed that I can't get history off my mind) I feel like murdering somebody or something. I know I'm not suppose to criticize any teachers let alone in my blog, but I really don't understand his lessons or the notes even if I do try. I just find myself staring at him muttering some weird stuff I don't understand for two complete hours weekly. And so the reason why I DREAD Monday and Thursday. And the worst part is because I try so hard in vain. -___-
Today was a complete waste of time. Why? All because I didn't feel like it. Oh yes, I sat on my table, I attempted doing Math hw. Then I stare at it for five miserable minutes and went down to buy Ice-Cream. What a terrible day of my life it is. And I couldn't do Sudoku either because I'm having a very very slight headache.
Lunch was terrible too coz Dad cooked something for himself (stuffs that he like and I don't) thus stinking the whole kitchen and I literally felt like puking or something. I just ate half my lunch since my appetite wasn't good at all.
And then feeling pathetically bored and maddened, I went to watch television. For two freaking wasted hours. I feel so mad over the holidays!
I didn't even feel like chatting on msn and barely anyone posted on their blogs and I didn't feel like playing any games either. Oh, what a loser! Btw when I was bored I threw the remote control. gaAh. And I threw cushions against mum's wardrobe too!
I guess I'll go have dinner first since mum cooked one of my favourite veg' dish. Then after that I'll spend some time alone out late in the night. May there be wind. *
One of my random thoughts: I know I've set my mind to do it and so I shall as soon as I get a small glass bottle. Prick my finger with a needle and let the blood drip. Oh my god its going to be so fun. *
Perhaps I'm literally insane or something. Oh, nevermind. I'll get back normal one day too. One last thing,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY STUART!
Chua.
AT♥7:02 PM
Saturday, March 10, 2007
Er. So, Harry Potter Book 7's out on 21st...? And the Order of Phoenix's out on 13th?
Hm.
AT♥8:29 PM
O-O!
There were two scouts from Henry Park that came over to the block to "do a good deed". And they were PRIMARY THREE. My gosh, it was a little hilarious! No, hilarious not as in I'm looking down on them, but how would you feel if at 10:30am, you open the door, and outside was standing two Primary 3 kids that was about 3/4 the height of you? Lmao.
Anyway my dad gave them 2 ferror rocher each (we still have tons at home anyway...) along with $2 bucks each for helping us to "water the plants" when we have no plants to water. ROFL. *
Anyway will be going to National Museum with team later for History Project. Probably will come online... at night. or the moment I get home. Latter likely. Sheesh. -.-"
Anyway, I fell asleep yesterday night while doing a Sudoku. Tsk. Doing too much Sudoku does make your head hurts.. yawn.
And nobody wants to come online at 8am in the morning, huh? I guess that's the time I'll be come online for the holidays. Since I like 8am so much. :D
Talk about randomness.
Chua.
AT♥10:42 AM
Friday, March 09, 2007
Oh yes, firstly, I'd like to mention HAPPY BIRTHDAY to darling WP and CLEO yesterday. Apparently I forgot to post about it! o.T"! *
Well, today was one cheerful day. Or almost. I mean, yeah.. I had tons of fun.
Anyway, starting from beginning-
Flag raising; then AE lesson which was ridiculously normal and expected. Then break which I ate a packet of Sushi (I want to go sakae. oO) and saw Sharlene and hung out with her for a little while doing stupid things. Then Art where I printed my spider picture which didn't turn out very well. And Mr. Chua gave me permission to a totally different picture for my second linoleum board; hooray! And Xinyi cut her finger thrice... I cut mine once but it only hurts when I type. Then HCL. And I finally exploded and want to announce that I hate it each time stuart whack my chair. OOOOoooooooof. Then 2 and the half hours free. Had lunch (Jap food), then went to the library to play truth or dare which highly included the guys in the other room -.-" followed by I went to the fitness corner with Ethel! (Played on the swing and climbed the monkey bar.)
Then the big event of the Interhouse game. Great job Fibo C division - captains ball! And of course all the other houses as well. I think their perseverance are awesome, honestly!
Fibo C division team consists of - HuiKang - Jonathan - JiaMin - Stanley - Xavier - Bernard - Belinda - Gerlynn - Magneline - Tricia - Chua
and they've all put in great effort; I thank you very much my team. :D
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Watched a little bit of soccer (when fara vs teachers). It was a day fun enough. (: After that played some badminton until 6:30.. came back home with Cheryl (Lit) on the same bus. *
Cool, the holidays are finally here. Or so, "holidays". I think it's creepy. Really creepy. T-T
I'd want to go out and have fun. Just one day. Will I?
Chua.
AT♥7:27 PM
Thursday, March 08, 2007
Congratulations Chua, you've just dropped the wrapper of the chocolate down the window sill... by accident, of course.
I was standing there and thinking about a thought I had for quite a while. (started somewhere last month.) I really, really would like to sit on the window sill - the only thing that prevents me from doing so is the fear of falling down 14 floors but more likely the attention it will attract.
I just need a little place where I can feel the wind, somewhere high. indeed.
Stuart thinks I'm demoralized for the year; probably because of these posts. He isn't the only one though, I'm sure. Maybe all my readers think that way. Why so? Probably because I never posted like I am now for the past year; and so yes, I have my little masquerade too. And I'm definitely proud of it. Along with my acting skills (: and so yes, I keep my thoughts to myself fairly easily.
No, I'm far from being depressed. Perhaps I ought to emphasize a little more; this had been my way of thinking and is now as well. Then why the little posts that's more cheerful than my usual self? Because I'm happy sometimes too like a typical little girl. And mainly because I have innocent awesome friends as my readers. (:
*
RAWR.
Ooof. Morning. Math. Apparently Mr. Low listened to our advice and didn't use powerpoint for the class today. We were given 2 assignments - both due after the hols. Eeeuk. >< In fact, I prefer it much more when he just taught us using the whiteboard. I get to scan through the whole of the notes before the end of the lesson. :P
Then History (I skipped break.) where I attempted listening to Mr. Loke though I honestly failed to understand him. Meanwhile gerlynn was creating a sudoku during his class. -.-! she probably enjoyed it though, haha... As long as her grades are better than mine.
Followed by... English. Test. Topic I wrote was "A meeting of Strangers". It was pretty weird and rushed, since we were given only 50 minutes. Poof..
Biology. Kiet Mun went through his powerpoint presentation. Apparently Stuart missed the whole thing coz he was playing bball or something. Well, good for him. Tehh.
Then the two and the half hours break. Gerlynn Feyra and I first went to have lunch until 12:15; then went to the computer lab for about 30 minutes? (no idea, i left at the time I finished posting) Then to the library for a short while, before proceeding to the fitness corner where I taught Ethel and dont-know-her-name how to climb the monkey bar + the swing. (: Apparently ger and I saw Ahmed, he commented we were like monkeys climbing the rope... Errr. -no comments-. HAHA!
After that headed to library for a little while, before we three (feyra ger and I) went to the canteen for no particular reason. Chat with sky again. I was playing snakes on Feyra's phone and Ger was a little hectic - she kept saying that the snake looked like the sperm! Ha.. And then she mentioned stuffs about the sperm being in the fallopian tube and when I passed the level it means the sperm had fertilized the egg... Right! Btw, I don't know if I mentioned this before, but sperms are cute because they have LONNG tail! Haax.
After that we headed back up to the classroom. Mainly to complete my lit hw (HECK, I forgot to submit. -.-") and Gerlynn was watching the gays playing bball on the court. So after i completed my hw halfway I went to watch them as well (while standing on a chair). Haha. It's fun watching them play. And then Debra came in and shouted random stuffs... hahax! Random, truly.
After that was HCL test. It wasn't so bad and it wasn't so good either. I've already lost a couple of marks.. Then was literature which I was released at 6:03pm. Ooof. Then Junle and I caught the same bus home.
And meanwhile I was checking the number of calls I've missed (~8) and the number of smses (~15) I've received and not replied (phone was battery-less and I switched it on for a couple of seconds every few hours). Ooof. ><
Anyway, going to have dinner soon. Until 7:40. Then I'll go to Clementi to buy a new battery for my phone. Then home.. at around 8:30pm. And if sis or mum ain't using the computer, you'll see me online for as long as I can.
Inter-house games tomorrow! Good luck everyone.
//mixed up.
Waiting for darling Sharlene's phone call later.
Chua.
AT♥6:51 PM
Oh yes pretty pretty little one. (:
Apparently the above sentence shows that I'm pretty much in a happy mood. Ooof. For some reason.
FYI, my phone is down. I mean, probably there's something wrong with the battery. Couldn't be charged even when I chuck it to the charger for hours and hours. In order to make it last today before I fly to some weird shop to get a better batt, I switch on my phone for 30 seconds every few hours. :D For the messages. Heh.
Gosh I feel soooooooo much like a typical girl. Yeah right. In a way perhaps yes. Yes, yesh. I'm typical enough. Yeah right.
Yesterday I was thinking about some stuffs that made me really happy. Oh, what a nice little world of fantasy. Thus I ended up sleeping at 4. And waking at 6:30 for a nice little shower. :D
Tsk. Can't wait to go down to the swing at the fitness corner. Apparently I liked hanging out in several places in school - library, computer lab, fitness corner. Pretty little thing. Uh huh.
Btw, just a slightly more detailed version of an incident yesterday in school, Gerlynn Feyra and I gossiped with sky! Haha. He says the girls in our school are deprived. *nods* Ha! Sky's honestly awesome to chat to. xP
May spring approach.
And same goes for the little fantasy. Maybe. Apparently I made the decision yesterday.
Chua.
AT♥12:46 PM
Apparently today did not go as smoothly as I hoped it will. Furthermore, it turned out TERRIBLE.
And that meaning my day on Thursday will be screwed too. Oh yes, SO badly screwed up.
-___-"
(but i shall never never complain because I think my sis is having a tougher time than me now.)
WELL, today I was suppose to come online. Being ridiculously stupid or something, I fell asleep on the bed after posting my previous post at around 6pm. Then *poof* and I woke up at 12:05 this morning.
aka meaning I have yet to have my dinner. (i think im cooking maggie mee since I don't feel like having rice heh)
well anyway. So when I first woke up at 12:05am; when my sister just switched on the light in the room *poof* and screamed "you haven't had your dinner", I thought I can don't give a heck about it and just continued sleeping. When I realised tomorrow is THURSDAY, the day when I have to submit my SIX JOURNALS for literature and there is HIGHER CHINESE TEST. Meaning I have to drag myself off the bed and complete my homework. :(
Why did I fall asleep for? *
And my sis apparently is taking a tougher time than me since she has cheeriobics. Some stuffs about dyeing of hair, money matters... etc.
So I won't complain. (:
*sniff*
Chua.
AT♥12:24 AM
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
Likewise, I never take the first step. In fact, I detest doing so.
And if I did otherwise, there's only 2 reasons. One because you don't affect me or because I have a reason too valid.
and so it leads to the hectic Wword.
All of a sudden, I realised I was trapped again. Again; Always were. I don't even find a different route anywhere...
*
Perhaps some might think that I'm a depressed freak each time I post about all these. Untrue it may be, of course. They're just my shallow little thoughts.
And how I wish I could post more about them. ***
Biology exam. Screwed. -sigh- I just don't feel like giving a heck into many, many things...
Hols ain't going to be like hols; but definitely an extra period of time compared to the mad week.
Apparently Physics Test will be postponed - thanks to weijin sending an email to the VP. laughs.
And I feel dead the moment I think about homework. Oooof. Get through thursday darling. T.T Then maybe you'll get a good sleep tomorrow night.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEBRA! :D
Chua.
AT♥5:52 PM
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
Right, so I came online after all. Heck that, nevermind. oO *
Morning. Reached on the dot.
Math. Average lesson.
PE. Captains ball and 205 owned as usual. That was fun! Cheer up mariel. :D
Chemistry. Average.
English. Peer Critique. Apparently I ended up doing two - ger (as she requested) and uncle (his story was cool.)
Then home. Then bathed. Then studied/y. *
RIGHT. So tmr's Biology exam and Physics test!!! AWWW. I sure hope it won't be too hard. May I NOT forget everything I have attempted to memorise. Screw STDs, I just can't jot em' down into my head. :(
Anyway jq's gonna have a blog soon, haha. I think!
And I love talking to my dear KaiQi through the phone.
good luck to everyone for their exams~ *
After thursday, I'll get a nice little BREAK! hooray. Can't wait. Oooof.
Chua.
***
Maybe I was a little slow, I realised I was really fortunate. Compared to some. Perhaps.
AT♥8:53 PM
Ooooof. T_T
I hated those times during the past. The BIGW and M word. Oh, haha. I'm just being silly. ><
gaAh, Physics test + Bio exam tmr!! I think I'll be revising for the day, thus I won't be coming online. Contact me if you need to through phone, thanks. (:
Chua.
AT♥5:07 PM
Monday, March 05, 2007
Never, never live your life in the dead way.
Wake, Work, Eat, Sleep. *
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DARLING TUDI; SECRETARY; GERLYNN. (: *
No, I'm not exactly cheerful today. Kind of dread... biology exam? And maybe because (I hate the repeating past.)
History. Boring. Failed test, I didn't get single digit, so its an improvement. As long as its history. *cross fingers and hope i don't fail the Module*
English. Boring. As usual. Writing, so what can you expect? But Ms Wong's okay. Suppose to do peer critique for essay. Postponed to tomorrow- its okay though. After I edit all the funny grammar errors then I'll post it up here huh.. (:
Chinese. Spelling. It wasn't so bad. Hopefully I get above 45... but I'm not so sure.
Math. Oh? Yeah, like Debra, I don't exactly like the powerpoint slides. Starting to get boring huh. My math ain't good either.
Then slacked like a retard in the school library. Then KFC for mash potato. Then home.
Sheesh, slacker. *sigh*
Chua. :(
AT♥8:36 PM
Saturday, March 03, 2007
hello. (:
Oh yess, my headache is finally gone. At like, 9:30pm.
Got the headache because I slept too long, I think. Woke up at 20 minutes to 1pm this afternoon. -__-
Must have been because of the tiring week. And then I got a nightmare about an endless load of biology homework and it was already monday.
When I woke up, it wasn't what you can call refreshing. I was feeling uneasy while coughing all day. oO Good thing I ain't sick, I don't want to be either. gaAh. If I didn't read WhaiPeng's blog I'll forget all about literature journal, oh no... *sniff*
Yes, that's about it.
Chua.
AT♥10:02 PM
Friday, March 02, 2007
So... it's us next? Won't it be fun. Too fun. A little too exciting for me.
Can't wait. Bring it on... even if it's me.
But fuck you if you dare harm my friends.
AT♥10:42 PM
Being depressed on the week of exams ain't what you can call awesome. *
Art was cutting the linoleum board. And enduring the freaking cramps.
Continued cutting my spider during HCL. Mr Ho gave a boring lesson regarding compo writing. Like he did a few weeks back. Lost to ger by half a mark this time round. Oh, anything.
And then - cut -.
CCA was awesome this time round. Both Chengxu and Teacher gave a marvelous solo for us to watch for pure pleasure. (: Apparently we're working on jazz. And stupidly, I forgot the steps by the time it is now. Oh, how much I hate you.
The girls' birthdays are all approaching, but apparently I don't feel like going out. Now that sucks big time.
Monday- HCL spelling Weds - Bio Exam + Physics Test Friday - HCL test
Oh, I'm so dead. And I don't look forward to history either because I'm sooo afraid that it's going to pull down my CAP. NOOOOooo, I don't want to bear the 2 hours of history exam. Someone save me please. X.x
No, serious. I'm getting paranoid. About the next history lesson, next PE lesson, next 2.4km run. I'm getting frantic.
Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LIYOUNG!
* No. I don't want to go out. I don't want to stay at home. I want to be back to the hiding spot. By myself. Watching the raindrops. I'm tired as well. We're all stressed out this time, are we not? Each and every of us, a different reason. I want to release those tears. Truly. I want someone to be there.
How much effect will the word "cheer up" create? No, it doesn't do anything but it lets you know you've got a friend.
But I'm too helpless this time.
AT♥10:16 PM
Thursday, March 01, 2007
Cold wind.
Why bother going through what I've already experienced before? Then don't.
I feel that I barely exist. If I were to disappear from the world, will it affects others? How much, how long? And thinking about your own worth's probably one of the silly things to occur. Maybe I should treat it like I ain't. I once said I wanted to live to help; now I want to protect. even if they don't realise. And when I can't, I feel helpless.
But meanwhile I want to stand on my own; I need to stand on my own.
Because I have further goals to achieve. Those who caused pain must experience pain; Which isn't exactly the best way to lead life. But back to the question which I raised several days ago Live life happily or live life your way? I still don't know. But my personality choose the latter. What's the point I'm trying to make for the day - And why. I need to know. If. because you vanished; dashing all my hopes. Silently. And why today? Because I talked about you. Chua. And the worst thing is it's a complete cycle.
AT♥8:42 PM
Righto. Computer Lab. History. Suppose. Suppose. You get the meaning.
Didn't feel like blogging. Apparently I feel a bit dead... x.-" Or down. or just doesn't feel good. No, not blue week. Just dead. Really.
Maybe because I have to rush literature later during Lunch. One more journal to go, along with the ws (I just remembered, screw.) Tsk.
So I'm just feeling dead. Yeah. Sigh. And maybe because I have to think for the hcl presentation as well. Oh, whatever.
Someone cheer me up..
Chua.
-10:15am- Stuart is just funny. -__-" For the past several tens of minutes he had tried getting me to watch NBA for like 10 times in the com lab. And of course, not forgetting to talk to himself. Really. o_O "gosh. boom. watch nba." "she's damn evil la."
and no less than 10F words. Oooof. Anything. But the sad thing is I'm not getting entertained by anything else beside that. gaAh.
